I am terrified to speak
I spend so much time thinking about my problems, or other people's problems -- social problems, environmental problems, etc. -- but it all just rolls around my head and doesn't go anywhere. I am so stuck in things.
I have so much social anxiety that I don't even post to my own journal. I have become truly terrified of speaking my mind. I am trying to learn to accept this; that I am afraid, which is not something I'm used to being; that I am senselessly afraid of things I cannot even describe. It has been so difficult just existing. Between the constant pain and fatigue from my illness, and the severe social problems I've had, I have become afraid of people.. whom traditionally I love so deeply. Love is in my nature and it is all I want of life, but I have trouble expressing it and opening myself to people because so much has happened to make me afraid to do anything at all.
I need some serious help..
I have so much social anxiety that I don't even post to my own journal. I have become truly terrified of speaking my mind. I am trying to learn to accept this; that I am afraid, which is not something I'm used to being; that I am senselessly afraid of things I cannot even describe. It has been so difficult just existing. Between the constant pain and fatigue from my illness, and the severe social problems I've had, I have become afraid of people.. whom traditionally I love so deeply. Love is in my nature and it is all I want of life, but I have trouble expressing it and opening myself to people because so much has happened to make me afraid to do anything at all.
I need some serious help..