Yet another commuter rant....pay no attention
So as I decided yesterday, I feel my complete hatred for commuting growing with each passing minute of the semester. I mean, I hate always being like "Wahhh it's soooo unfair! This sucks, I hate everything about fucking commuting!" But it's true. Over the summer when everyone started talking about how lonely they were that they couldn't see anyone, I didn't know how to feel. Part of me was like: So what? Now you know how *I* feel during the scool year. Lonely, excluded, out of mind... However, the majority of my feelings did express both empathy and sympathy.
It's just...I don't really like being that person that invites themselves to things. I just feel like I'm being annoying and all that. At the same time, I feel kinda hurt that people will tell me all about the fun things they've done during the week or over the weekend. Why? Because half the time they'll ask: Why didn't you come? My answer: No one called me. So yay for that awkward moment.
Seriously, I've checked out pricing for residency several times over the summer, seeing if I could just swing it. I also learned that I could have applied for an R.A. position....after they had already been selected. Like, I even told my mom about it, and she was like "You should've checked into it" #$%#@$@!! >.< grrrrrr.... But going back to the main point of this: I just can't afford it, I don't qualify for anything, and the people around me who don't go/never went to college just shrug like "Well, why would you want to live on campus? Isn't it just as easy to drive there?" No actually, it isn't. I mean, I don't have as long a drive as some other students...but I also try and make it seem shorter. When I say 20 minutes....I meant that's if there are no other cars on the road, no one being friggin stupid and stopping in the middle of the road because they forgot they were turning left, all the traffic lights stay green, and I speed. Realistically my commute turns to a half hour/35 minutes...but it has taken me an hour before >.< (due to construction/cop directed traffic/general stupidity from fellow drivers).
Looking in from the outside does me make wish to make a few points about residency:
- Sorry if this offends anyone, but I seriously think that they should take academic eligibility more seriously. I honestly feel like my head will explode when I hear people talking about all the partying they've been doing and how they know they're gonna fail their 8am class because they never go. "Oh that's okay! I'll just drop it! It doesn't matter, I'll still get to be back in the dorms next semester because it doesn't matter to the people paying for me!" WTF?! I work my ass off to get the grades I get, I missed out on a lot of parties to study and work on projects. I even kept the job I really dislike just so I'd have my own spending money. I guess that partying is more of a requisite for getting residency than making the grade
-There should be some system for these people that have a spot in the dorms...but they don't stay in them. They go off and live with their bf/gf. This honestly makes me pull my hair out of my scalp. These freaking selfish people have their parents shelling out thousands of dollars to live on campus, and what do they do? Just take up space that could go to someone more deserving on the waiting list because they're soooooo in love with their significant other. Ugh...I know so many people from freshman year that had the absentee roomie.
Anyway, I think most of my anger now is derived from just some things that happened yesterday....paired with the fact that I keep gettng asked to work when I can't (ugh that's gonna bode well when I need time off....) and for the past 5 weeks in a row, someone's asked me to come in early on saturday. >.<
This also has me wondering what would have happened if I applied somewhere farther away or if I had applied out of state. Would I have had to transfer? I mean...I was told when I got into Suffolk that there was no way I'd be able to live on campus...luckily I wasn't all that in love with Suffolk anyway. Though I have contemplated since then what it would have been like to go to school in Boston. If I applied and got into a school out of state, and let's say it was a great fit....what would have happened? Would I have had to leave after sophomore year? Freshman year? Maybe it still would have been the right idea
I also think it's strange...most of my friends that were residents at their respective colleges are still residents and it's arguably a more expensive tuition. My friends from Abington/Rockland that lived on campus at Bridgewater? We've all had to start commuting. No lie. So yeah at least I know I'm not the only one, but at the same time, what does that say about the cost of living on campus?
You just don't get the same college experience. Commuting fucking sucks. Yeah, they have a commuter week, but so what? It's one week out of an entire year that you actually feel included. I miss out on EVERYTHING. Ugh, this is gonna turn into just straight up anger and several things unrelated to the main point if I don't end this now...so I guess that's it.