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[ailika20]

there have been issues and drama lately within my relationships where feelings of love, availability, reciprocality and need have made them complicated, tiring, stressful, and ultimately hurtful. i understand the need to talk things out, but sometimes i hate discussing one's personal definitions, expectations, and intentions. wasn't part of the

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[cynical_saint]

i wish you luck in your quest for new friends. i've tried just about everything i can think of and i can't seem to meet anyone i like. this place is apparently devoid of people i can be friends with, with the only exception being the people i've already met, and am sort of getting tired of.

but to avoid being that guy who comments on you posts about himself rather than giving some useful input, i think your problem is one shared by many people such as ourselves. i don't know, maybe some of the things we have in common, causing us to become friends, are that we are too picky in our choice of friends. we look for a few meaningful and close friendships rather than many casual and shallow friendships. the former being fewer and farther between. it's unfortunate, but you may have to accept that you may not find any people there who make the cut.

[captaincutlazz]

We should go on adventures then! I know that when we room together it will be impossible for us to not do random, crazy things : P Great things about Friedman's... random parties and random people make random awesome, fun times! Good luck with things and remember to breathe. That is what I have learned. You are a beautiful person and I am happy that I am your friend. I apologize for not being the best because I always get so busy, but I am still honored to be a part of your life :)

[pulvis_et_umbra]

dinner or something w/ me and cory this weekend?

Completely Agree

[anonymous]

Welcome to my world (well a year ago)! I agree that branching out does help. You will find that there are so many people out there who value and want to be your friend, not out of obligation but because they want to. Good luck with your journey. I know you will find what you need.
This is liz (coco) by the way.

[mcchinawu]

"and it [speaking] is neverw ithout fear; of visibility, of the harsh light of scrutiny and perhaps judgment, of pain, of death.
But we have lived through all of those already, in silence, except death. And I remind myself all the time now, that if I were to have been born mute, and had maintained an oath of silence my whole life for safety, I would still have suffered, and I would still die." Audre Lorde

i have to constantly remind myself, in fact, i reminded my self this morning, when we are silent, we are in many ways dead. i realized this when i got into a mini fight with my mom last night. i was going to stay in my room and stay silent and bottle all my anger inside, when I realized there really is nothing to be gained by being silent. and when i forced myself to speak to my mom and raised the issue (respectfully of course haha), the whole time i was terrified, but just FEELING was better than numbness of the silence.

i may be reading toom uch into it, but i wanted to share with you my mini-revelation for the day.