Poem

[aikana]

I usually don't post other people's pieces (except for parts of it, like quotes). But this one really gets me every time I read it. It just reflects my thoughts sometimes, and I'd like to share it with you as Pauley P. herself shared it with the readers of her blog back in the day when she had one.

Medused
wringing hands
and bended knee
doubt and fear are near to me
I search the air for clarity
and remind myself to breathe
swollen eyes
and world worn skin
danger is now from within
I'm done but have yet to begin
in the purging of my sins

spinning rooms
and aching head
all the things I've done and said
the question of the life I've led
and whatever lies ahead

endless days
and sleepless nights
ups and downs and wrongs and rights
fighting to keep hope in my sight
I'm frozen in the headlights

pale white skin
and racing brain
i struggle just to maintain
and cover up my port wine stain
and i'm sane, i'm sane, i'm sane.
forging on
the breaking bend
time just will not seem to end
and ancient wounds that will not mend
as I'm clawing at my skin

tired bones
and furrowed brow
peace that i will not allow
I want to sleep but don't know how
and the sun is rising now
so again
another day
will begin and have its way
and taunt me with its hopeful ray
and again, here I will stay.

by Pauley P.