Not again!

[aikana]

I'm feeling sick.
I have a stomach ache.
I have a headache.

I'm sad.
I'm angry.
I'm confused.
I'm tired.

I can't believe it....
I was feeling so perfect and good while I was in LA, 
and now I have been home 24 hours and
it starts all over again!!!!

And it's not my fault.
I know I have been complaining about going home
But
When I was sitting on the plane to Zurich
I thought about everything I did in LA
And about everyone I met there
And I came to the conclusion
That it was the most precious time
Of my life
I learned so much from my experiences
And from the people
About the city
The way of life
About God and faith and the church
...about myself.

So when I was flying home on my 767 yesterday
I thought of all this
And I was happy.
Because I knew that
I had done so much
And I was looking forward to going home
Knowing what I do this all for.

But now it all starts all over.
I fight with my boyfriend.
I feel lonely.
I feel out of place.
I'm sick.

Even though I tried to be positive.

What the F*** is wrong with me???? :(((