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[aidansgreenenvy]

With each ticking of the second hand, I'm wasting more of my life away. Time is plaguing me like it never has before. On my days off, I'm sometimes getting as much as 12 hours of sleep. While it feels great to do so, when I look at my clock upon getting out of bed, I can't help but feel a little bit remorseful at having wasted so much of the

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[lianarosanadana]

Okay, first of all I laughed kinda hard when I read that last part. I hate it when I do shit like that, but I gotta laugh at others when they do it, right?

Secondly, Aidan, you need to get some perspective. You are 19 years old. 19! You literally have your whole life ahead of you. If you're not comfortable making decisions about your future now, then don't make them now. Besides, how can someone with little to know experience in just plain living life day to day on their own be equipped to make a decision like what you're going to do with the rest of your life? The reason you don't know is becuase you're too young to know that right now Aidan. Right now, you don't even know what your limits are, what you can withstand, or how much you can depend on yourself and yourself alone. You've never had reasons in your life that forced you to fend completely and utterly for yourself, without help from anyone. Can a person lacking such experience make a decision about the fate of their own future? Hardly.

Give it time Aidan. You're still so young, you don't need to make this decision right now. Right now, you need to figure out who you are, and what you're about. This is your chance to know yourself, and to realize your own strength. Look at our family, look at our uncles. Almost every last one of them went straight to college out of highschool, and then went straight into working some high paying high stress job, and then straight into having a family and raising children. Of all our uncles, how many of them really know who they are? Paul? He barely has time to say hello, let alone figure himself out. David? I think he's just now starting to realize who he is, and he realizes that he's not that happy with how things wnet. Michael? The man doesn't even know who his children are, let alone himself. Now look at my mom. The woman didn't really have a plan, just a ton of "surprises" in her life that forced her into situations where she haad to fend not only for herself, but for three girls, all on her own. Now look at her, monetarily, she is just as successful as everyone else in our family. But she has something that most of them don't, she is truly and 100% happy with her life right now. College didn't give her that, a job didn't give her that, she found it all by herself.

Look at me. I'm a good deal older than you, and only a year ago did I finally decide what I wanted to do with my life. Are you saying that I have no time left to finish what I've started? Even I have the largest part of my life ahead of me, and I'm working for that now. I have the experience to know what I need to be happy. And that's what you need to figure out, what makes Aidan happy? Does living every day to only ensure that tomorrow he'll be comfortable make Aidan happy? No, at least not the Aidan I know.