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It's been about a month and a half since I was kicked out of my apartment. And as of today, it's been a month since it happened. I suppose it's not really a surprise that he never called me back. He didn't even before then, so why would he now. I guess a small part of me thought he would try. Maybe I didn't do the right thing. I don't know anymore. I just know that it hurts. There are times I feel numb and I don't know what to feel anymore. Tonight is one of those nights.
I went up to the deck and was watching the sky. It was really beautiful, but it also really saddned me. I just realized that I was out there, alone. I haven't seen much of Yuugi or Yami. I realize how much I don't have many friends. Seth has been my saving grace, however, there are times I wonder if he feels he has to. It could be how muddled my thoughts have been lately. I just realized how alone I really am. Not that I need to have someone, just... it was a moment, that would have been nice to share with someone. A friend, family, anything.
I feel like I'm cracking around the seems.
I went up to the deck and was watching the sky. It was really beautiful, but it also really saddned me. I just realized that I was out there, alone. I haven't seen much of Yuugi or Yami. I realize how much I don't have many friends. Seth has been my saving grace, however, there are times I wonder if he feels he has to. It could be how muddled my thoughts have been lately. I just realized how alone I really am. Not that I need to have someone, just... it was a moment, that would have been nice to share with someone. A friend, family, anything.
I feel like I'm cracking around the seems.