[YamaChii] House of Delicacies ー Namida
Title: House of Delicacies - Tears
Author: Ai no Messeji
Genre: Slice of Life, Romance, Drama
Pairing: YamaChii
Summary: Tears are accustomed to pain. But tears also can make you see how strong one’s love can be.
YabuNoo Version: None Yet~
Snippets 3:
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Tears
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The moment those tears start to fall on Chinen Yuri's charcoal eyes.
Yamada Ryosuke starts to die more inside.
While his heart, it starts to break. Because, every drop of those precious tears makes him worry, every little sniffs and sobs he hears, makes him want to cry. While, the most painful thing about it all is that, every time he sees those desperate-begging eyes of his Chii, trying to fight the fear and the loneliness that kills him inside.
Pain, immense pain eats Yamada alive. Because, he can’t do anything about it - he can’t stop those things from happening... from slowly killing his Chinen and drowning his little squirrel into silent misery and despair. It hurts him most because he can’t protect his one and only. It hurts him more because no one seems to see.
No one seems to understand.
No one seems to try and listen to his little angel as he calls for him
"... Yama-chan..."
....Every day.... Every night...
No one tries to reach his Chii as he falls.
No one tries to wrap their warm hands around that fragile frame that he loves to hold.
No one tries.
Everyone denies his Chinen the comfort and the love he needs right now.
Everyone keeps on walking out of his squirrel’s life - giving up on him, never understanding him and trying to see through that fake mask of smile and happiness.
They deny the truth.
They won’t open their eyes.
That’s why they can’t see the real Chinen Yuri inside.
They can’t see his vulnerable and fragile Chinen Yuri.
They can’t see his Chinen Yuri as he slowly dies every night as he cries.
...Cry over his death...
...Cry over his name...
...Over and over and over again-
…like a broken doll, a broken cassette…
Though, even if Yamada knows that he is useless now and even if he knows that he can’t do anything about it, Yamada always tries his best to be the best medicine he can be. Even if he knows that he can’t touch...hug...hold... his Chinen anymore, even if he knows that his Chinen can’t see him anymore. He does his best to make that beautiful angel of his smile again.
Every day, until he forgets about him...
Yamada Ryosuke
Every single day, until he finds someone better…
Someone who can heal his broken soul…
Someone who can mend his broken heart...
Someone who can pull him through….
Someone like-
Him - Yamada Ryosuke - when he was still alive.
“Don’t cry anymore, Yuri.” Yamada cooed as he gently pats the head of his crying love, “… I am here, always. So please, don’t cry…” he whispered, while tears start to fall on his brown-eyes, “Yama-chan will always stay in your heart.” He reassures before he pointed his finger on Chinen’s heart,
“I love you, Yuri. I love you so much.” Yamada repeats again and again, because he knows that his Yuri. He can’t hear him. He knows that his Yuri can’t feel his reassuring touch. He knows. And it’s very painful for him - yes. But, whenever he does these - every day, every single day even when he was still alive - his Chinen would always stop his crying and just gives him a smile.
A smile that always seems to understand....
A smile that says it's okay, he is alright.
A smile that says he knows and all is going to be fine...
Though, how...
How does he know?
How does, Yamada Ryosuke, know about Chinen Yuri's unspoken words, unsaid fears... shed tears?
How...
Especially now...
...now... that he is dead.
...and as for Yamada - a lingering spirit or not, his answers will always be the same..
One, he knows his Chinen Yuri more than his own... two, he loves Chinen Yuri the most in the world and three, but not the least, is just because when those tears fade and that pretty smile starts to appear on his Chinen’s pretty face.
These words, always, he says.
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“...I love you, Yama-chan.... and thank you... from the bottom of my heart...”
,,, and those words,
Yamada will always remember...
... and cherish forever...
...Even in death.
Fin.
Ai no Messeji: Inspiration comes when you least expect it. And in all honesty, this gave me goosebumps. Please enjoy~
Author: Ai no Messeji
Genre: Slice of Life, Romance, Drama
Pairing: YamaChii
Summary: Tears are accustomed to pain. But tears also can make you see how strong one’s love can be.
YabuNoo Version: None Yet~
Snippets 3:
涙
Tears
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-
-
The moment those tears start to fall on Chinen Yuri's charcoal eyes.
Yamada Ryosuke starts to die more inside.
While his heart, it starts to break. Because, every drop of those precious tears makes him worry, every little sniffs and sobs he hears, makes him want to cry. While, the most painful thing about it all is that, every time he sees those desperate-begging eyes of his Chii, trying to fight the fear and the loneliness that kills him inside.
Pain, immense pain eats Yamada alive. Because, he can’t do anything about it - he can’t stop those things from happening... from slowly killing his Chinen and drowning his little squirrel into silent misery and despair. It hurts him most because he can’t protect his one and only. It hurts him more because no one seems to see.
No one seems to understand.
No one seems to try and listen to his little angel as he calls for him
"... Yama-chan..."
....Every day.... Every night...
No one tries to reach his Chii as he falls.
No one tries to wrap their warm hands around that fragile frame that he loves to hold.
No one tries.
Everyone denies his Chinen the comfort and the love he needs right now.
Everyone keeps on walking out of his squirrel’s life - giving up on him, never understanding him and trying to see through that fake mask of smile and happiness.
They deny the truth.
They won’t open their eyes.
That’s why they can’t see the real Chinen Yuri inside.
They can’t see his vulnerable and fragile Chinen Yuri.
They can’t see his Chinen Yuri as he slowly dies every night as he cries.
...Cry over his death...
...Cry over his name...
...Over and over and over again-
…like a broken doll, a broken cassette…
Though, even if Yamada knows that he is useless now and even if he knows that he can’t do anything about it, Yamada always tries his best to be the best medicine he can be. Even if he knows that he can’t touch...hug...hold... his Chinen anymore, even if he knows that his Chinen can’t see him anymore. He does his best to make that beautiful angel of his smile again.
Every day, until he forgets about him...
Yamada Ryosuke
Every single day, until he finds someone better…
Someone who can heal his broken soul…
Someone who can mend his broken heart...
Someone who can pull him through….
Someone like-
Him - Yamada Ryosuke - when he was still alive.
“Don’t cry anymore, Yuri.” Yamada cooed as he gently pats the head of his crying love, “… I am here, always. So please, don’t cry…” he whispered, while tears start to fall on his brown-eyes, “Yama-chan will always stay in your heart.” He reassures before he pointed his finger on Chinen’s heart,
“I love you, Yuri. I love you so much.” Yamada repeats again and again, because he knows that his Yuri. He can’t hear him. He knows that his Yuri can’t feel his reassuring touch. He knows. And it’s very painful for him - yes. But, whenever he does these - every day, every single day even when he was still alive - his Chinen would always stop his crying and just gives him a smile.
A smile that always seems to understand....
A smile that says it's okay, he is alright.
A smile that says he knows and all is going to be fine...
Though, how...
How does he know?
How does, Yamada Ryosuke, know about Chinen Yuri's unspoken words, unsaid fears... shed tears?
How...
Especially now...
...now... that he is dead.
...and as for Yamada - a lingering spirit or not, his answers will always be the same..
One, he knows his Chinen Yuri more than his own... two, he loves Chinen Yuri the most in the world and three, but not the least, is just because when those tears fade and that pretty smile starts to appear on his Chinen’s pretty face.
These words, always, he says.
-
-
-
“...I love you, Yama-chan.... and thank you... from the bottom of my heart...”
,,, and those words,
Yamada will always remember...
... and cherish forever...
...Even in death.
Fin.
Ai no Messeji: Inspiration comes when you least expect it. And in all honesty, this gave me goosebumps. Please enjoy~