I need to take my own advice..

[ahuey]

You know how i just wrote about how you can't talk to your ex because eventually they just piss you off.. well I had actually called Ryan for a legitamate reason today.. and somehow he always manages to piss me off.. i think he has a gift.. I had told him that Erin or sean could probably help me move so he didn't have to and i mentioned that I didn't want to get him in trouble with Kate ( in actuallality I could care less but i was just being nice). He goes on to say no.. she trusts me... and then says.. Imagine that huh?? Insinuating that I didn't trust him.. Granted no I didn't ever think that Ryan would ever actually cheat on me.. BUT I DID KNOW THAT he liked Kate.. I was just looking out for myself.. SO i said to him.. " well you dating her now aren't you.. what does that tell you?.. I was right.. DON'T COMPARE MY ASS TO HER.. BEcause there really is no comparison.. and i don't mean that in a cocky way... DO you guys ever see Porkypine99 online anymore? NOPE thats because he got what he wanted.. all he did was talk to women aka Kate on the internet while we were dating.. Does he do that shit to her now? NEgative.. Does he go and sneak out to see his old flame from high school behind her back? NO.. he doesn't.. Has he ever blantantly went against what she hates the most.. knowing the consequences of is actions (aka smoking weed).. NO he hasn't so of course she's going to trust him completely.. she has no reason not to.. Granted if he hung out with me two days a week.. do you think she'd be happy about it.. NEGATIVE... That really pisses me off. You can't compare the end of a five year relationship with the begining of a new one.... AM i really that much of a bitch??? Just don't fucking compare me to her.. EVER. Man i was pissed...

love you all....