reason for silence
So, i've kinda figured out the reason I don't post much anymore. Too many things I can't tell certain people, at least in a public forum. I'd love for all the small shit to really be small, but that just isn't happening. I'd love do drop facade and show everyone the real me, but that won't happen while i'm still in the current situation. So I live a lie to keep everyone happy, everyone but me. But really, what does it matter how I feel, I'm the one who stopped feeling at 10 because it was inconvienent. I'm the one who sits on the side and watches everyone live while i am simply existing. We'll see how much longer I can stand this before I go nuts.