162 beats a minute. 24 breaths. she can't sleep at night. she can't walk up the steps without a few more breaths. she looks at the stars but can't see their light. she's losing her mind. falling into dreamland. slipping away. all she wants is to get away. somewhere far far away from everyone and everything. the mothers make a human wall ( Read more... )

im at school right now. a place im not found very often. i hate school. i can't stand it and im sure every other kid i know feels the same way but i just can't make myself go to school for a full week. it's only wednesday and i've already missed 8 classes. fuck yeah i know im gona be screwed if i dont start trying harder. im so mad at myself. ( Read more... )

i usually write in my journal when im bored and/or sad or if something really really extremely exciting has or is happening. well nothing exciting has or is happening so yup...im kinda bored....kinda lonely...kinda sick of homework...kinda sick...yay i get to get called out of class tomorrow! woot! school has seriously sucked this week. monday i ( Read more... )

oye i miss him so much. we talk more now that we're "taking a break" but i still miss him to death. i want to see him so bad. i don't know why we can't just hang out once. ugh why can't he just friggin talk and tell me what's going on and what's gona happen instead of just leaving me sad and confused ( Read more... )

so this weekend was pretty dang eventful. friday i wasn't planning on doing anything or going anywhere, but i ended up going to stephen bailey's birthday party and seeing a whole bunch of my brother's friends that offered to smoke me out at alex o'neil's house cause my brother wouldn't. lol my brother's friends r cooler than i thought. they're way ( Read more... )

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hmmm haven't updated in a while. today was a really long day. last night was a really bad night. the football game was lame even though we won like 32-7. today was the sort of day that i was just really sad and wanted to cry for no reason. that usually means i'm gona get super stressed out over something soon. whatever...i miss christian....i miss ( Read more... )

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i think i'm a fairly average person. maybe a little different from the average folk, but i like who i am. sure things may suck mad balls here and there. but so many good things happen to me that it hurts to complain. truelly it hurts to hurt. i'm so happy right now though. and i know it may not last long cause my feelings and emotions r like a ( Read more... )