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I am officially obsessed - OBSESSED - with Jim and Pam on "The Office." I have been thinking about them, literally dreaming about them, and hunting down fic for two solid days.
Which means I have once again resorted to sublimating huge, real-life longings, because reality is too scary. (YM, of course, MV.)
My potential for a romantic life is so fucking sad. I need to stop thinking of myself as old, fat, and romantically retarded and hopeless, or that's exactly what I'll be. But I do wish I wasn't still figuring so many things out at the age of 38. I mean, I know people my age with kids in high school. And yet my demons are still making me their bitch, while I sit around hoping the right magical boy will come along and Like Me and that if he does, I won't fuck it up royally.
I just want to figure it out and find someone while I'm still young enough to have some fun. You know, before getting naked involves removing pairs of Depends.
*sigh.* Instant solutions welcome.
Which means I have once again resorted to sublimating huge, real-life longings, because reality is too scary. (YM, of course, MV.)
My potential for a romantic life is so fucking sad. I need to stop thinking of myself as old, fat, and romantically retarded and hopeless, or that's exactly what I'll be. But I do wish I wasn't still figuring so many things out at the age of 38. I mean, I know people my age with kids in high school. And yet my demons are still making me their bitch, while I sit around hoping the right magical boy will come along and Like Me and that if he does, I won't fuck it up royally.
I just want to figure it out and find someone while I'm still young enough to have some fun. You know, before getting naked involves removing pairs of Depends.
*sigh.* Instant solutions welcome.