if i remember anything, i'll make mistakes again.
this being stuck inside the house because of "state emergency" really is no fun. all we've gotten so far is wind, but i'm okay with that (because that means we keep electricity)
for the first time in a LONG time, i got tired of being online today. wow.
the common conversation:
"hey. man i'm so bored"
"me too."
+
you're not supposed to be on the roads, so we couldn't go anywhere.. erg.
and i have to do it again tomorrow.. shoot me? well, maybe not.
»
i think i am the most indecisive person that i know..
about everything, not just the big current situation.
daryl and i used to take forever to ever do anything, because i never really make decisions about anything.
"where do you want to go?"
"it doesn't matter,wherever you want"
/_+
i never know what to think, and if i do begin to think something, i make up a reason to think against it, because i convince myself that whatever i'm feeling at the moment is wrong..
that's probably the main reason i never really get anywhere when i'm left to make decisions on my own.
there's normally two sides to every decision, and i'm always afraid to hurt the other side, or regret it.
even simple things, like if i want to go to my mom's or my dad's for dinner..
daryl always told me i should start having more of an opinion on the simple things..
and as far as the big thing is considered; i wish i knew in the long run which would be/have been the better choice.. i don't want to jump back into something if i'm changing my mind everytime the minute is an even number.. because then i'll end up hurting him again, and that's not what i want to do.
i don't know much of what i want to do, but i know that that isn't one of them.
+_\
i was talking to eddie about this today..
have you ever had a dream, and when you wake up you KNOW that it was just a dream... but maybe it was your subconscious telling you something?
had one of those lastnight, and now it has me all messed up and scared. It would make sense, and i wouldn't be surprised.
I sort of feel bad for thinking that, but it's not like it hasn't happened before.
I don't know..i 've been home all day and started analyzing everything.. that's bad.
i think i'm going to do the 50 things from Ellen's journal. :)
for the first time in a LONG time, i got tired of being online today. wow.
the common conversation:
"hey. man i'm so bored"
"me too."
+
you're not supposed to be on the roads, so we couldn't go anywhere.. erg.
and i have to do it again tomorrow.. shoot me? well, maybe not.
»
i think i am the most indecisive person that i know..
about everything, not just the big current situation.
daryl and i used to take forever to ever do anything, because i never really make decisions about anything.
"where do you want to go?"
"it doesn't matter,wherever you want"
/_+
i never know what to think, and if i do begin to think something, i make up a reason to think against it, because i convince myself that whatever i'm feeling at the moment is wrong..
that's probably the main reason i never really get anywhere when i'm left to make decisions on my own.
there's normally two sides to every decision, and i'm always afraid to hurt the other side, or regret it.
even simple things, like if i want to go to my mom's or my dad's for dinner..
daryl always told me i should start having more of an opinion on the simple things..
and as far as the big thing is considered; i wish i knew in the long run which would be/have been the better choice.. i don't want to jump back into something if i'm changing my mind everytime the minute is an even number.. because then i'll end up hurting him again, and that's not what i want to do.
i don't know much of what i want to do, but i know that that isn't one of them.
+_\
i was talking to eddie about this today..
have you ever had a dream, and when you wake up you KNOW that it was just a dream... but maybe it was your subconscious telling you something?
had one of those lastnight, and now it has me all messed up and scared. It would make sense, and i wouldn't be surprised.
I sort of feel bad for thinking that, but it's not like it hasn't happened before.
I don't know..i 've been home all day and started analyzing everything.. that's bad.
i think i'm going to do the 50 things from Ellen's journal. :)