Facing Fear

[aguilarh]

Name 3 things you're afraid of. One of my answers to Irene's question was to be lonely. It's 7:15 and everyone has finally left my apartment, leaving me here alone to face a whole new world. The weekend was a great one. I couldn't have asked for better people to spend these first days in Las Vegas with. Miguel, Ricky, Irene, Michelle, and Nick

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wheveverwhenever

[putonahappy]

I tried to post this a couple of times with no success so if it didn't work:

Like Shakira, Where ever when ever...

We love you no matter what the distance are.

For all those times I've failed to mention how much you mean to me, I hope this takes care of at least 25% of the lack. The 75% left I will have to make up to you in physical form *wink* haha oh funny. I know I don't say it like I really should be saying it but I do really love you! Te amo papi-amorito. You are the right dose of painkilling day makers I needed during these painful growing aches. Growing up sucks doesn't it! For all those times I've talked your ear of or those times you felt I was too self absorbed and all those times that I let you down, I do appreciate the kind of friend you are and I value our strange relationship above all. I wouldn't change what we have for anything in the world either and I count you (as well as the rest of the garage gangsterrers *wink*) as a blessing and proof that there is good in this world and that love doesn't always have to be painful. I may wear my heart on my sleeve, but telling someone how much they mean to me does take a lot of courage to do so. For everything you are to me is another day I look forward to. For every challenge that I've succumbed to; you are the reason to give it another try - a second look - give it antother go. For all those talks we've had; you are the reason I belive that things do get better and that there are other things to be thankful for and happiness comes in different forms. I love you Hector For EVERYTING. I do hope that I"ve become the friend that you have become to me! Wow, *phew* now that I got that out of the way...*smacks back of your head*

and this is the part where I break out in song: "So far away, doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore...I can't wait to see your smiling face at my door." - Carole King (?)

*wink* *sigh* I really do love you for real.

Re: whereverwhenever

[aguilarh]

wow, what can I say? I'm speechless. I haven't received words and emotions from a person like this in a long time. I feel like giving you a huge hug and a kiss for having the courage to say what you did. Believe me, I know you enough to know that even when you said certain things playfully, you meant every word you said. You wouldn't keep repeating things if you didn't *wink* I told you I pay attention. Seriously though, this takes care of more than 25%, I'll give you about 27% for this one. Just kidding. You don't have to make anything up to me...unless...you really want to! For reals though, I really do love you too. I don't know, maybe it was the fact that we went through the same cycle in our relationships when we started talking, or maybe it was just personalities, but you have become more of a friend to me than you can imagine. For all those times that you said I helped you, you were doing the exact same thing for me. I came to you with as much drama and questions as you did with me. You were one of the few people who saw me for who I really am, past all that sarcastic and goofy behavior. I guess I found a comfort zone with you that allowed me to finally open up to someone. So for that I thank you too. Yea growing up sucks but there's not escaping it so we might as well take it for what it is and make the best of it. At least there is a support system with everyone around us in case we need that extra boost to keep pushing forward. And if you need anything from me don't be afraid to ask. I'll do my best to make you as happy as I can. And fyi, you never, ever let me down. Yea I might have mentioned that you were too self absorbed at times but you never let me down because through it all, you always found a way to move on past disappointing situations. So instead I'm more proud of you than anything. It may sound corny but you sure have grown up a lot in the time that I have known you. Faced with so many obstacles, I saw you take them all head-on even when you felt like quitting. That's all I wanted to help you realize, that you could in fact do those things you often complained about. So congratulations! Ok I can go on all day when it comes to telling you just how beautiful of a person you are so that should answer your question on whether you have become the friend to me that I have become to you. So there you go, maybe I haven't said it like I mean it either in the past, but I too truly do love you. And like you said to me, Irene I love you for EVERYTHING. I have known you a lot less than everyone else I met at work and everyone that I call my friend, but you I will miss terribly and more than the majority of my friends now that I'm here. So there, you gave me the opportunity and encouragement to get this out too. I love you tons!