Facing Fear
Name 3 things you're afraid of. One of my answers to Irene's question was to be lonely. It's 7:15 and everyone has finally left my apartment, leaving me here alone to face a whole new world. The weekend was a great one. I couldn't have asked for better people to spend these first days in Las Vegas with. Miguel, Ricky, Irene, Michelle, and Nick all showed me just how much they care by coming out here for me.
I'm really going to miss my family and being in a house where there was always someone around to talk to or fool around with. There was going to come in a time when I had to let go so might as well get that out of the way. Miguel I will miss the most because we have been through so much together and I know he will be the first one here for me if I need someone. Ricky and I have also been through so much in the almost 7 years we have known each other and he has turned out to be one of my closest friends. Michelle I will miss because we really got closer over the years to the point where I felt like her big brother and feeling like I needed to be the one she could come to with anything, which she did. Irene, what can I say about her? She helped me cope with so many things while listening to what I had to say about her. Her colorful personality made her seem like a handful, but I saw her for who she really is and that's a genuine person who wears her heart on her sleeve. We have a funny relationship and I wouldn't trade her friendship for the world. And of course how can I forget Nicholas. My cubicle buddy for 5 years. We had our fair share of laughs and only Nick can get away with so much negativity and still be able to keep us from hating him. Of course everyone else from family to friends to acquaintances I'm going to miss in San Diego, but I had to leave a few words for those who made the trip out here. Thank you all and I love all of you for being here for me and I'm sure I will call on your help in the future.
Except for a couch, I have everything I need to get by in this new city. I won't lie, I'm scared of being here alone and having no one to come home to to tell my stories to. As soon as everyone left and I walked back to the apartment, the loneliness hit me and right away I felt like I needed to do something to keep myself busy. But at the same time I wanted this to prove to myself that I have what it takes to make it on my own. This is the hardest thing that I have ever had to do and it's quite intimidating, but there's no turning back now. As the days got closer to my moving out here I often thought to myself why I just didn't stay in San Diego. Opportunity came knocking and brought me out here so I have to take advantage of it. I just wish there was someone out here with me to help push me when I need a push, encourage me when I need to hear those words, or tell me I'm not doing enough if I start to slack off. Life is nothing but a journey and along the way there are obstacles and set-backs. This for sure isn't a set-back, so I can't start thinking of the negatives. I can always call someone if I need to hear a familiar voice and Irene left me with pictures if I need to see a familiar face. This is it, as I always say, "GAME TIME." Time to take all my words that I've given to others and listen to them and believe in them. Only time will tell how this part of the journey turns out...
I'm really going to miss my family and being in a house where there was always someone around to talk to or fool around with. There was going to come in a time when I had to let go so might as well get that out of the way. Miguel I will miss the most because we have been through so much together and I know he will be the first one here for me if I need someone. Ricky and I have also been through so much in the almost 7 years we have known each other and he has turned out to be one of my closest friends. Michelle I will miss because we really got closer over the years to the point where I felt like her big brother and feeling like I needed to be the one she could come to with anything, which she did. Irene, what can I say about her? She helped me cope with so many things while listening to what I had to say about her. Her colorful personality made her seem like a handful, but I saw her for who she really is and that's a genuine person who wears her heart on her sleeve. We have a funny relationship and I wouldn't trade her friendship for the world. And of course how can I forget Nicholas. My cubicle buddy for 5 years. We had our fair share of laughs and only Nick can get away with so much negativity and still be able to keep us from hating him. Of course everyone else from family to friends to acquaintances I'm going to miss in San Diego, but I had to leave a few words for those who made the trip out here. Thank you all and I love all of you for being here for me and I'm sure I will call on your help in the future.
Except for a couch, I have everything I need to get by in this new city. I won't lie, I'm scared of being here alone and having no one to come home to to tell my stories to. As soon as everyone left and I walked back to the apartment, the loneliness hit me and right away I felt like I needed to do something to keep myself busy. But at the same time I wanted this to prove to myself that I have what it takes to make it on my own. This is the hardest thing that I have ever had to do and it's quite intimidating, but there's no turning back now. As the days got closer to my moving out here I often thought to myself why I just didn't stay in San Diego. Opportunity came knocking and brought me out here so I have to take advantage of it. I just wish there was someone out here with me to help push me when I need a push, encourage me when I need to hear those words, or tell me I'm not doing enough if I start to slack off. Life is nothing but a journey and along the way there are obstacles and set-backs. This for sure isn't a set-back, so I can't start thinking of the negatives. I can always call someone if I need to hear a familiar voice and Irene left me with pictures if I need to see a familiar face. This is it, as I always say, "GAME TIME." Time to take all my words that I've given to others and listen to them and believe in them. Only time will tell how this part of the journey turns out...