So pick the black rose and let it's thorns cut you..

[agonizedpoet]

I knew Brian could fuck things up for me. Things with Marc are completely fucked. I don't know how to tell him, or break up with him. I've never cheated on ANYBODY up until now. I fuckin knew it though! But I thought things would be different- Brian was ACTING like we were together or something. He was confusing the hell out of me. He still fuckin is. And after all this bullshit going on with Brian filling my head with fuckin' ideas, he goes and supposedly laughs about it and goes "Oh shit, I fucked up. I fucked up. Danny's going to fall inlove with me again." and fuckin' laughs about it. I don't know why I let Brian fuck around with me. It's like, just as all my feelings are becoming friendly with him, or when I'm lonliest, he pinpoints me and decides to dick around. After everything Adrian freaks out on me and goes off on me. This was all last night.

Honestly, fuck it. I don't care anymore. I don't know what to do, but I don't give a shit. Fuck it.


"Rose in the Devil's Garden"
by Tiger Army

There is a rose in the Devil's garden
In shadow it grows alone
Many things are dangerous now
In this garden we call home

Be careful as you make your way
Some things are poison to the touch
You've spent your life here in this place
You long to run away so much

[Chorus:]
My love it is a black rose (my love it is a black rose)
Held out to you by the hand of fate (held by the hand of fate now)
And as this dark romance grows...
It's not from the sun, but the starlight that's so far away
Above the Devil's garden

The fertile soil of poisoned hearts
Fed by tears and nighttime rain
Under Transylvanian moon
Grows the flower bred from pain

Death is pure - life is not
So ask yourself, what do you want?
As for me, well I want you
So pick the black rose and let its thorns cut you

[Chorus]