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It occured to me the other day that I don't know how to talk about feelings. When I discuss emotions I do so in a very rationalized and intellectualized matter, as if telling a story from the outside looking in. I philosophize my pain, making it pretty and polished instead of ugly and raw how it should be, how it is. I wonder sometimes if it's ( Read more... )

There was a time I cherished the alone times, with myself, with my mind, with a pen and a paper and all the answers unraveling before me in words. Lately I've been feeling overwhelemd by thoughts and emotions, neither any of which I'm committing to. I cannot explain the sense of being overwhelmed by things you can't define (not explain, define, as ( Read more... )

When I started seeing her it seemed as if I was finally ready. I had tried before, and blamed the failure on the other party. Truth is, I never really wanted it to work up until now ( Read more... )

...and it´s called sadness. stream of consciousness emotions and all matchbox style ( Read more... )

So, it's been about two months since I've updated my dear journal. More embaressingly, since I've read all of yours. I'll be honest, it is easier to update my facebook. That is because I can reach a greater variety of real life people on there (my boy, my college friends, army friends and high school friends). Also because of the aforementioned I ( Read more... )