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I went and saw 'In The Land of Women' on Tuesday with Kelly, and that movie is remarkably good. i was really impressed with it. I love it when a good indie flick comes out because it gives me something to look forward to buy when it comes out.
Thursday was my PT (physical Training) test For the Navy, and i had to run a mile and a half in under 13:30 and do 50 push ups and 50 sit ups. i ran the mile and a half in 11:16 and did 59 push ups and 67 sit ups. my recruiter was pretty impressed with my results as i was. Its funny because when working out at my house i could usually push myself to do like 45 push ups tops and 50 sit ups tops, but when you got people your kinda competeing with and other people pushing you to your limits...i preformed so much better, which leads me to beleive Boot wont be so bad. because ill be pushed the whole way through. i cant beleive i leave for boot in 22 days. its kinda scary, Mostly becasue its starting to become reality, and im not EXACTLY sure what to expect of it all. Im starting to realize its pretty simple to get my body into shape. ive only been stedily working out for about a month or so and im in great shape. thats coming from a guy who RARELY worked out before and NEVER ran. and i can only improve from here...so thats pretty reassuring.
Jesus we've been playing poker up here 4 nights a week. at least i know by the time i leave ill have my fix in. haha. and im just now starting to meet people around here that i can actually talk to and hang out with. it kind of sucks that im starting to enjoy life out in the "woods" right before i have to leave them for good.
Its funny that while ill always have a profound love and respect for hardecore and MOST of what it stands for...i hardly listen to it anymore. i mean if im at a show it still sends a spark through me and i can still listen to it. its still good music to me. but im starting to realize that alot of what hardcore has been transformed into these days is bullshit. and im not going to go on this typical hot topic rant becasue while thats all very true, its been beaten to death. It seems to me (and i WAS a good example of this) that kids turn to hardcore becasue They have nothing left...and while thats how it was inteded to be, its turned into thins lifestyle of scapegoats, leaches and moochers. Full of kids who couch hop and take their friends generocity for granted. People use it as a way to feel better about the shitty lives they are living. While i know this does not apply to some people it does however apply to most. Sometimes you'll come across a hardcore kid whos goal oriented and has a plan for himself that he actually intends on following through with. But it seems that most of the kids involved with hardcore are accepting defeat in that sense, and i think that while all the bands sit there and preech will power and respect and self respect they are the same 38 year old men who are in a touring band with little to call their own and still trying to be 21. By the time they are 50 they will be asking themselves "now what?", And again this is obviously a case by case basis, but its aplys to most of the hardcore scene. I feel i have my ground to stand on becasue i WAS that guy. i was that guy who had nothing lined up because i wasnt applying myself because ive gotten too comfortable with everyone else doing things for me. and i DEF took my friends for granted. And if i could go back and do things differently i would...but all i can do now is try to educate people and kids on what hardcore SHOULD be. IT should be VERY goal oreinted and kids who each have their own homes and apartments. not these flop houses you see in every scene and not full of kids who dont drive and have 5 bucks to their names. Because there will come a time when all that shit, all the shows and all the fights and all the bands wont matter. the only thing that will matter are the people STILL there and the things you've accomplished that will help you get the right job so you can support yourself and a wife and kids when that time comes. and if i were to tell someone currently involved in the scene that they would tell me that they knew that but what they dont realize is that the hardcore scene CAN become adictive and a black whole so to speak and as time roles on it becomes easier to lose sight of those goals you set out for yourself, what seems like so long ago.
i Still love the music and still love all of my friends involved with it, But i do not consider myself apart of that scene any longer.
Thursday was my PT (physical Training) test For the Navy, and i had to run a mile and a half in under 13:30 and do 50 push ups and 50 sit ups. i ran the mile and a half in 11:16 and did 59 push ups and 67 sit ups. my recruiter was pretty impressed with my results as i was. Its funny because when working out at my house i could usually push myself to do like 45 push ups tops and 50 sit ups tops, but when you got people your kinda competeing with and other people pushing you to your limits...i preformed so much better, which leads me to beleive Boot wont be so bad. because ill be pushed the whole way through. i cant beleive i leave for boot in 22 days. its kinda scary, Mostly becasue its starting to become reality, and im not EXACTLY sure what to expect of it all. Im starting to realize its pretty simple to get my body into shape. ive only been stedily working out for about a month or so and im in great shape. thats coming from a guy who RARELY worked out before and NEVER ran. and i can only improve from here...so thats pretty reassuring.
Jesus we've been playing poker up here 4 nights a week. at least i know by the time i leave ill have my fix in. haha. and im just now starting to meet people around here that i can actually talk to and hang out with. it kind of sucks that im starting to enjoy life out in the "woods" right before i have to leave them for good.
Its funny that while ill always have a profound love and respect for hardecore and MOST of what it stands for...i hardly listen to it anymore. i mean if im at a show it still sends a spark through me and i can still listen to it. its still good music to me. but im starting to realize that alot of what hardcore has been transformed into these days is bullshit. and im not going to go on this typical hot topic rant becasue while thats all very true, its been beaten to death. It seems to me (and i WAS a good example of this) that kids turn to hardcore becasue They have nothing left...and while thats how it was inteded to be, its turned into thins lifestyle of scapegoats, leaches and moochers. Full of kids who couch hop and take their friends generocity for granted. People use it as a way to feel better about the shitty lives they are living. While i know this does not apply to some people it does however apply to most. Sometimes you'll come across a hardcore kid whos goal oriented and has a plan for himself that he actually intends on following through with. But it seems that most of the kids involved with hardcore are accepting defeat in that sense, and i think that while all the bands sit there and preech will power and respect and self respect they are the same 38 year old men who are in a touring band with little to call their own and still trying to be 21. By the time they are 50 they will be asking themselves "now what?", And again this is obviously a case by case basis, but its aplys to most of the hardcore scene. I feel i have my ground to stand on becasue i WAS that guy. i was that guy who had nothing lined up because i wasnt applying myself because ive gotten too comfortable with everyone else doing things for me. and i DEF took my friends for granted. And if i could go back and do things differently i would...but all i can do now is try to educate people and kids on what hardcore SHOULD be. IT should be VERY goal oreinted and kids who each have their own homes and apartments. not these flop houses you see in every scene and not full of kids who dont drive and have 5 bucks to their names. Because there will come a time when all that shit, all the shows and all the fights and all the bands wont matter. the only thing that will matter are the people STILL there and the things you've accomplished that will help you get the right job so you can support yourself and a wife and kids when that time comes. and if i were to tell someone currently involved in the scene that they would tell me that they knew that but what they dont realize is that the hardcore scene CAN become adictive and a black whole so to speak and as time roles on it becomes easier to lose sight of those goals you set out for yourself, what seems like so long ago.
i Still love the music and still love all of my friends involved with it, But i do not consider myself apart of that scene any longer.