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Posted on January 31st, 2006 at 12:03 am
sometime relatively soon, it'd be nice to be the "important girl," instead of "the girl in between the important girl."
it'll happen.
wow...and now i'm the important girl. it DID happen.
in other news...my job is boring. SO boring. there's not that much people interaction and i just kind of sit at a desk in the center of the room (because there's nowhere else for me right now) and smile as people walk by and laugh when they ask things like, "are you in time out?" its great getting paid what I get paid…and its also great (I think) to know that I'm getting paid this much to realize what I quite possibly DON'T want to do. Granted, I have no interest in oil & gas, and I would probably be much more excited to do this same job at a hospital or clinic or something, but still - I want the one-on-one, or several-on-one, warm, caring, interaction that I KNOW is out there.
Sometimes I feel so silly for caring so much and thinking so carefully about what it is I want to do with my life - but my question is, why DON'T people care more?! It’s the REST of your LIFE. Even if I have kids, they're eventually going to be in school. And I'm not sure I just want to take care of the house and errands all day. I know there's plenty to do to keep a house running, but I just want something different than that. So…even when you take out time for raising your kids - I'll still be working PLENTY of years to justify putting this much thought into getting a job I like.
I think I'm realizing that sometimes, the advantage of working your way up to a really high position in a company is that you don't have to actually do as much work.
So, the other night, while I was talking to jaime, he told me that I needed to "date" different careers to see if it was right for me, among other pieces of very wise advice. So, I got the number of a PA that's friends with Mary Ann Tabb. And I'm going to call and ask her on a date. Okay, obviously not a real date, but I'm going to see if I can meet with her over dinner or coffee and talk about what its like being a PA and also see if I might be able to shadow her sometime in the beginning of August.
Its so strange how my nights fill up so quickly…this week, I went shopping with my mom last night, tonight is happy hour with the houston maggies, and tomorrow I've got plans too. There is just so little time for anything but work, except for the weekends. Now I understand why a lot of working adults don't get the chance to exercise - when you're only homeawake from like 6 to 10 or 11 every night, you just want to hang out…and be pasty. I'm considering self-tanner.
Also, I think I'm finally realizing that jaime isn't going anywhere. Which is funny that I'm just now realizing this - I mean, the stomach virus, picking me up from work because of cramps, and a spinal surgery & neckbrace for 8 weeks didn't convince me? Oh em. I'm also realizing how incredibly lucky I am. I made a list of all the wonderful things he's done for me or said over the past 6+ months - just to read when I miss him - and wow. I am SUCH a lucky girl and its so obvious that he cares so much.
Anyone have any suggestions for how to amuse yourself during work?