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Title: Rotting from the inside out
Author: Me<3
Rating: PG *Suicide
pairing: KyoxKaoru, hints of KaoruxToshiya
warning: suicide
Disclaimer: has lyrics from; Rotting root, Toguro, 24ko cylinders,
summary: "Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?"
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Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?, i know i have and i know that it is everyday. I see the way you look at him, All love and attraction to our blue bassist. But when you look at me i see the love we once had rotting from the inside out, Maybe thats why i started to write such cold hearted lyrics.
"Mother
The pieces of my wish all come together now
Let my hostile voice be heard as I live this moment"
When we are on stage so many past written words of our songs come to my mind, As i watch you look at him my heart shudders inside. I think thats why i started to Cut myself in the first place on stage, You all thought it was because for more emotion effect to the songs But in actuality it was so i could show you how you and him made me feel.
"The time will end, The time will change, Me, you and now, Like with the flow of time.
The time will stop, Until the end, Let's say good night with a kiss to a live with no fire"
When the concert is over and all is done i am left within the shadows, i contemplate with myself on weather you will leave me tonight again to go with him.
But as soon as i realize that my thoughts are answered as i see you come to me with nervous eyes and him fallowing behind you.
You tell me that you and Him will be going out to drink and that you will see me when you get home, I give you a cold stare and nod. you know that i know that you and him are not just going to drink.
The crumbling temptation has a smiling face
The blurred night bursts
"Cover scars with scars"
"Darkness, Doubt and Human Nature"
I make it back to "Our" apartment only to be welcomed by nothing, I drag myself to our bathroom and i clean myself off from the sweat and dirtyness of the world.
I then lay silent on the bed only to hear the sound of the never sleeping city. I wonder if you ever loved me in the first place or if our "love" was just turning into ashes because of me.
I wouldn't know, i'm not you. I sit up a bit and sigh. I decide thinking about it only hurts me more, Instead of hiding my emotions i think i'll write in the only obscured way i ever could.
I make my way into the bathroom my wrist bleeding with the scarlet ink i'm going to leave you in, the words from a song. My laughter echos in the bathroom like a mad man creating a death bomb, after writing you my emotions i feel the coldness of death pull at me, I start to smile and shiver. I turn on the bath tub making the water run cold.
I strip down to the bare minimum and get in. I leave you with Hatred, Jealousy, and a taste of my world to you.
My incompetent voice of just living
My long lost dreams turn into foolish bubbles
Disappear
~Owarii~
Author: Me<3
Rating: PG *Suicide
pairing: KyoxKaoru, hints of KaoruxToshiya
warning: suicide
Disclaimer: has lyrics from; Rotting root, Toguro, 24ko cylinders,
summary: "Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?, i know i have and i know that it is everyday. I see the way you look at him, All love and attraction to our blue bassist. But when you look at me i see the love we once had rotting from the inside out, Maybe thats why i started to write such cold hearted lyrics.
"Mother
The pieces of my wish all come together now
Let my hostile voice be heard as I live this moment"
When we are on stage so many past written words of our songs come to my mind, As i watch you look at him my heart shudders inside. I think thats why i started to Cut myself in the first place on stage, You all thought it was because for more emotion effect to the songs But in actuality it was so i could show you how you and him made me feel.
"The time will end, The time will change, Me, you and now, Like with the flow of time.
The time will stop, Until the end, Let's say good night with a kiss to a live with no fire"
When the concert is over and all is done i am left within the shadows, i contemplate with myself on weather you will leave me tonight again to go with him.
But as soon as i realize that my thoughts are answered as i see you come to me with nervous eyes and him fallowing behind you.
You tell me that you and Him will be going out to drink and that you will see me when you get home, I give you a cold stare and nod. you know that i know that you and him are not just going to drink.
The crumbling temptation has a smiling face
The blurred night bursts
"Cover scars with scars"
"Darkness, Doubt and Human Nature"
I make it back to "Our" apartment only to be welcomed by nothing, I drag myself to our bathroom and i clean myself off from the sweat and dirtyness of the world.
I then lay silent on the bed only to hear the sound of the never sleeping city. I wonder if you ever loved me in the first place or if our "love" was just turning into ashes because of me.
I wouldn't know, i'm not you. I sit up a bit and sigh. I decide thinking about it only hurts me more, Instead of hiding my emotions i think i'll write in the only obscured way i ever could.
I make my way into the bathroom my wrist bleeding with the scarlet ink i'm going to leave you in, the words from a song. My laughter echos in the bathroom like a mad man creating a death bomb, after writing you my emotions i feel the coldness of death pull at me, I start to smile and shiver. I turn on the bath tub making the water run cold.
I strip down to the bare minimum and get in. I leave you with Hatred, Jealousy, and a taste of my world to you.
My incompetent voice of just living
My long lost dreams turn into foolish bubbles
Disappear
~Owarii~