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In the wee hours of my birthday, a question arises. Why do people have a fascination with alcohol? I don't get it. If you can get it, you're cool. If you drink it, you're cool. You spill it, you suck, you throw up, you suck, and in some occasions if you're not drinking, you suck. Theres nothing in between. You rock or you suck. And at least from the few experiences I've had with alcohol, it didn't make me feel good. I admit the first time I went way overboard, but the 2nd time I had "just enough" from what everyone else who wanted me to learn to enjoy drinking told me. Just feeling a little dizzy? Loss of body control? How is that fun? I just must not get it or something. Either way I'm getting pretty tired of it being such a huge deal. People are just drinking it to feel grown up now. They're in college or just wasting their lives, whatever the case drinking is the highlight of everything they do. I drank to figure out what the big deal was, and ended up just being even more confused. I didn't have fun because I was drunk, I was having fun because I was around the people I was around. The alcohol just made me dizzy. Thats it.
I'm sick of alcohol. I'm sick of drugs. I'm sick of girls. I'm sick of LO. I'm sick of killing my self 24/7 for some ridiculous goal that people keep telling me that I'm going to be a better person having worked full time and gone to college full time. I've been in a violent fighting mood ever since Thursday. As in if someone keeps pushing me I'll fucking headbutt them and take them down.
I need a woman.
I'm sick of alcohol. I'm sick of drugs. I'm sick of girls. I'm sick of LO. I'm sick of killing my self 24/7 for some ridiculous goal that people keep telling me that I'm going to be a better person having worked full time and gone to college full time. I've been in a violent fighting mood ever since Thursday. As in if someone keeps pushing me I'll fucking headbutt them and take them down.
I need a woman.