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It's weird how we grow up.
I used to watch college football and just marvel at how old the players were. That made the pro players ancient. Now I watch the games and when a sophomore player is discussed, I think...'I remember sophomore year. That was 5 years ago'. Then I realize that it was 5 years ago. 10 years ago I was starting high school.
I remember when my brother was little. Tiny kid. He rode one of my old bikes. It was pink. Then all of a sudden, that sun bleached blonde kid who followed me around all the time calling me "Sistew" (he couldn't quite get the r on the end of it) turned 21. Tom's birthday was yesterday. We are both graduated from college. My friends started getting married and having kids several years ago. I am in a relationship that I think is headed in that direction. We are all over the country, having moved away for school or to accept that dream job.
Sometimes I still feel like a child. I find myself occasionally thinking that I should go ask for permission to do something. Every late summer, early fall, I walk down the school supplies aisle and want to buy new notebooks and cool folders and a pack of new pens and pencils, maybe a new backpack.
I was in the store last night, and was in the check out line behind a couple and their young daughter. She was probably about 8, and her biggest worry was trying to convince her dad that she didn't want the pack of gum anymore. She wanted a little tin of "kitty candy" for her cat. She didn't care about a job, or how long her car was going to last, or how all the bills were going to be paid. She just worried about gum. I miss those days sometimes. I am very thankful for all that I have and all I have learned through the worries. I think we all need to be more like kids at times. Don't stress about every little detail. Just enjoy the new shiny shoes mom just bought for your first day back at school, or that dollar bill grandma gave you to put in your purse.
In the end, I want to enjoy my life, not worry about it.
I used to watch college football and just marvel at how old the players were. That made the pro players ancient. Now I watch the games and when a sophomore player is discussed, I think...'I remember sophomore year. That was 5 years ago'. Then I realize that it was 5 years ago. 10 years ago I was starting high school.
I remember when my brother was little. Tiny kid. He rode one of my old bikes. It was pink. Then all of a sudden, that sun bleached blonde kid who followed me around all the time calling me "Sistew" (he couldn't quite get the r on the end of it) turned 21. Tom's birthday was yesterday. We are both graduated from college. My friends started getting married and having kids several years ago. I am in a relationship that I think is headed in that direction. We are all over the country, having moved away for school or to accept that dream job.
Sometimes I still feel like a child. I find myself occasionally thinking that I should go ask for permission to do something. Every late summer, early fall, I walk down the school supplies aisle and want to buy new notebooks and cool folders and a pack of new pens and pencils, maybe a new backpack.
I was in the store last night, and was in the check out line behind a couple and their young daughter. She was probably about 8, and her biggest worry was trying to convince her dad that she didn't want the pack of gum anymore. She wanted a little tin of "kitty candy" for her cat. She didn't care about a job, or how long her car was going to last, or how all the bills were going to be paid. She just worried about gum. I miss those days sometimes. I am very thankful for all that I have and all I have learned through the worries. I think we all need to be more like kids at times. Don't stress about every little detail. Just enjoy the new shiny shoes mom just bought for your first day back at school, or that dollar bill grandma gave you to put in your purse.
In the end, I want to enjoy my life, not worry about it.