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So a lot has been going on lately. I guess I don't know.
Everyday I sit here working on new songs and watching tv. Playing my bass, talking to Gabe and thinking.
I think about a lot things. Especially about what is going on right now.
I had a long talk with Matthew today. We kind of got into a fight which is something I really didn't need today. It was about Lindsay. I guess I keep judging her wrong. Something happened between them which I am not going to go into detail about because it really is none of my business. Well anyway Haylie told Ian about it who told me also. So then I told Matthew about it and Lindsay got mad at me about it.
So we got into it. I mean I want to apologize for it because I mean I didn't stick my nose in places it doesn't belong but she blocked me so I can't. In anycase I feel bad about it so I'm sorry to both Lindsay and Matthew.
I alos find myself trusting people too easily lately. I know I shouldn't but I do. I thought I could trust Adam with something but I guess I couldn't because he started telling people. Which makes me come to this decision to either tell or not tell. But i've finally decided to tell him because I can't keep things from him...
I know I shouldn't but I have been keeping something from him for awhile now.
The other night I finally became open with him. I told him that I was falling in love with him which I know i am. It was one of the hardest things for me to tell him because it scares the shit out of me to tell him things like that because well I mean I have never felt this way before and I don't know I don't want to get my heart broken and it's hard for me to tell someone that.
Which also makes me think of another sad thing that has just happened to me. Dominic is out of the band. That makes me really sad to hear that. I have known him for so long and he has become like my brother. It is very sad for me to finally say he is gone. I will miss him so much. But I guess he just had some things to do...it's like a realtionship. I mean you know someone for so long, you guys get together, you fall in love and before you know it, it's over.
I mean I'm not saying I went out with Dominic or I was in love with him but it feels like a piece of me is gone. I know I will never lose touch with him but I just I miss him already and Tsunami Bomb will never be the same...
But anyway this entry is not very happy so now i'm going to go because I need to talk to Steve. Bye.
Everyday I sit here working on new songs and watching tv. Playing my bass, talking to Gabe and thinking.
I think about a lot things. Especially about what is going on right now.
I had a long talk with Matthew today. We kind of got into a fight which is something I really didn't need today. It was about Lindsay. I guess I keep judging her wrong. Something happened between them which I am not going to go into detail about because it really is none of my business. Well anyway Haylie told Ian about it who told me also. So then I told Matthew about it and Lindsay got mad at me about it.
So we got into it. I mean I want to apologize for it because I mean I didn't stick my nose in places it doesn't belong but she blocked me so I can't. In anycase I feel bad about it so I'm sorry to both Lindsay and Matthew.
I alos find myself trusting people too easily lately. I know I shouldn't but I do. I thought I could trust Adam with something but I guess I couldn't because he started telling people. Which makes me come to this decision to either tell or not tell. But i've finally decided to tell him because I can't keep things from him...
I know I shouldn't but I have been keeping something from him for awhile now.
The other night I finally became open with him. I told him that I was falling in love with him which I know i am. It was one of the hardest things for me to tell him because it scares the shit out of me to tell him things like that because well I mean I have never felt this way before and I don't know I don't want to get my heart broken and it's hard for me to tell someone that.
Which also makes me think of another sad thing that has just happened to me. Dominic is out of the band. That makes me really sad to hear that. I have known him for so long and he has become like my brother. It is very sad for me to finally say he is gone. I will miss him so much. But I guess he just had some things to do...it's like a realtionship. I mean you know someone for so long, you guys get together, you fall in love and before you know it, it's over.
I mean I'm not saying I went out with Dominic or I was in love with him but it feels like a piece of me is gone. I know I will never lose touch with him but I just I miss him already and Tsunami Bomb will never be the same...
But anyway this entry is not very happy so now i'm going to go because I need to talk to Steve. Bye.