It's been so long
Man, I can't believe I haven't posted anything in so long. It seems I never have any time these days. Homework has taken over my life. I need a break soon. I'm really looking forward to spring break next week. I haven't been to Disneyland or Universal Studios since I was a kid and I have never been to Sea World so I am really looking forward to it. I wish I wasn't stuck going with Greg though. He usually ruins our vacations and I know I probably shouldn't have made plans with him but I really want to go. I'm going to try not to be angry with him or annoyed. I just have to be patient.
I feel bad feeling this way but I resent him so much. I feel like I wasted the last 4 years with him. Oh well. He did some nice things for me so I guess I should be happy about the time we spent together. It's just hard. I wish I had someone else to vacation with. I have a feeling we aren't going to get along.
I'm trying to stay positive. That's just what I have to do. I'm just feeling kind of bummed out today. I feel happier with where I'm at but also kind of sad. I feel more productive being in school and working towards something but I have so many regrets for the past few years. I don't like how I behaved or the fact that I was drunk all the time. I think I could have handled things differently such as my job and friends. I feel like I lost so many people that were close to me and I feel like I had no control over myself. Those were dark times and never having had to deal with death or a broken heart, I really didn't know how to cope with it. I lost my mind. I feel like I'm getting it back and I feel like I'm handling my obstacles better now but I can't help but feel like I could have done things differently. I know there is no use reflecting on what has already been done but sometimes you just can't help yourself. Hopefully this trip goes well and cheers me up a bit.
I feel bad feeling this way but I resent him so much. I feel like I wasted the last 4 years with him. Oh well. He did some nice things for me so I guess I should be happy about the time we spent together. It's just hard. I wish I had someone else to vacation with. I have a feeling we aren't going to get along.
I'm trying to stay positive. That's just what I have to do. I'm just feeling kind of bummed out today. I feel happier with where I'm at but also kind of sad. I feel more productive being in school and working towards something but I have so many regrets for the past few years. I don't like how I behaved or the fact that I was drunk all the time. I think I could have handled things differently such as my job and friends. I feel like I lost so many people that were close to me and I feel like I had no control over myself. Those were dark times and never having had to deal with death or a broken heart, I really didn't know how to cope with it. I lost my mind. I feel like I'm getting it back and I feel like I'm handling my obstacles better now but I can't help but feel like I could have done things differently. I know there is no use reflecting on what has already been done but sometimes you just can't help yourself. Hopefully this trip goes well and cheers me up a bit.