EUNHAE FIC: Sleepless - Chapter 2
Title: Sleepless
Author: ageneshi
Pairing: Eunhyuk / Donghae
Summary: I got up and did some stretching. Though I know even if I relaxed myself, that wouldn’t be of help. And so I’ve decided to go look for my strawberry milk in the kitchen. At least that would make me calm a little bit.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, I want them so so so baaaaad. D:
A/N: I've decided to make it a chapter. Because I'd like to keep my readers hanging in curiosity. :P :))
Previously:
“Nighty Hyukie.” He smiled while I was in the situation of melting.
“Night Hae.”
I should... forget about my feelings for him right? As long as I have him, I can smile; I can sing and dance always because I have him dancing beside me. I have him who is so special to me. I have him... beside me, only as my best friend.
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It was dinner time when Eeteuk hyung and I arrived the dorm. The members where gathering around the dinning table, getting ready to eat. I joined them walking like a zombie. Head down, blank face, my senses floating up somewhere. My energy was drained because of today’s schedule. But I thought keeping myself busy would make me forget about him. But I was totally wrong. It only got worse.
So this time I didn’t mind my brain cells to think about Donghae. What can I do? The harder I try to forget about him, the more instances that I was pondering over him. Whatever I do, or wherever I am, I can’t deny that I was daydreaming about him.
As soon as I reached my seat, I couldn’t take my eyes off Donghae. My heart started jumping with joy again. But sill I felt sadness, because his answer kept flashing over and over inside my head. He met my gaze and smiled.
Uuuuugggghhhhhh, stop it Hae! Melting over here, hello!
I quickly averted my stare because that was too awkward. Yet I felt a minute of happiness inside. Speaking of awkwardness, it has been days since Hae and I haven’t talked to each other. Ever since that night when I was constantly thinking about him. But I have my own reasons why I was avoiding him. Now I don’t know how to approach him. I don’t know either why he hasn’t been talking to me.
I gawked and played at my food. I’m not really hungry.
“Donghae-ah, what were you doing the other night? I woke up and saw your bed empty.”
Even though I’m not with myself I clearly heard what Jungsoo hyung asked Donghae.
“I miss Kibummie. I really really miss him hyung.”
Great, another pain knocking outside to enter my heart. So that’s what he was thinking about the other night?? I stood up without saying any word. I’ve lost my appetite even more. I gave out a long sigh and walked rapidly so I could reach my room faster. All I ever wanted was to escape that hell of conversations.
I heard them talking if I have any problems and Eetuk hyung said to leave me alone and that I must only be tired because of today’s work.
Yes I am tired from work. And most definitely I’m tired thinking about Hae. How much longer will this keep getting stronger? This is like a torture. If only they knew what I was going through. If only… Donghae knew.
I lay on my bed lazily. Put the earphones on my ears, searched for some up beat song on my ipod and tried to think of some strategies to forget Hae. I grabbed a notebook and keep on scribbling:
I love you Hae. I love you Hae. I love you Hae. I really really love you. I do love you. But why in all people must I love you!? I hate you! I love you! Aaaagggggggghhhhhh!!!
I almost fill the entire notebook with my feelings for Hae. I wish I have the courage to really tell him that, but I just don’t have any. As soon as I stopped writing, Hae’s answer was replaying again inside my head.
Of course I love you Hyukie! You’re my bestest friend ever! Of course I love you Hyukie! You’re my bestest friend ever! Of course I love you Hyukie! You’re my bestest friend ever! Of course I love you Hyukie! You’re my bestest friend ever! Of course I love you Hyukie! You’re my bestest friend ever!
Really now, my brain is screaming ENOUGHALREEEEEAADDDDYYYY!!!
I took my phone beside me and noticed that it was already 1:08 am. This is insane! Thinking about him that long? I’m so stupid.
I got up and did some stretching. Though I know even if I relaxed myself, that wouldn’t be of help. And so I’ve decided to go look for my strawberry milk in the kitchen. At least that would make me calm a little bit. I was on my way when I saw the lights were still on.
“I miss him. I can’t take it any longer.”
“Just tell him already. Aish~ You’re only making it hard for yourself.”
Before I could make another step, my feet were glued on the floor. Hae and Eeteuk hyung were having a chat. Who does Hae misses? Kibum? Great. Just great. I couldn’t move my legs. My world started colliding again. When will this end? I don’t want this anymore. I want to forget Hae. I can’t endure this pain inside my heart anymore. It’s just, it’s too much.
CHAPTER 3
*Heh. It's short again. So sorry if it took me forever to update. I got sick and couldn't go on line. T~T