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sometimes is such an important thing to take things for what they are. not what they were, could be, should be, or what you wish they were.
perspective is such a funny thing. one one hand it can be so cruel, suffocating you 20,000 leauges under the sea, but on the other it can put you on top of the world.
but perspective isn't everything, you can compare, but it's still the same thing.
but i guess anything isnt anything till its something in your mind. how your mind creates it.
so in reality, it's just what you make of it.
make the best of it, or change it.
frustration for me, as of late, came from my dissapointment in what i thought things would be. i thought things would happen in this fashion but they didn't. that made me quite upset.
but the thing is, i won't know really how things would have gone. i don't know if it would have been good or bad. i wont know. but i was dwelling on the fact that THAT way was the way it was SUPPOSED to be. the way it was GOING to be. black and white.
well, it didnt. and i just recent realized that... despite the fact that time and space didn't procede in a fashion my 8 year old self decided was correct.. i'm ok.
the world did not come crashing down and i still have all my limbs.
i have some wonderful friends and have forged a friendship with my parents that i had never imagined.
i have 2 cute little furries that i love and adore and im here in worcester.
i'm happy.
seriously.
not 24 hours a day,.. but overall, things ain't that bad.
it's easy to take for granted the things that are good.
like the fact that i just painted my fingernails for the first time in at least a year.
they are shiny and pretty and it makes me happy
the fact that i was driving right behind a thunderstorm on the way to work yesterday but still was in the sun when i glimpsed this big old scary lightning bolt. with the postal service up so loud i couldnt hear myself. immeresed. not oblivous. to whats good. what's bad. to what is.
it's important because what is now, will only be.. right now. and once you miss it, its gone. if you spend your whole life thinking what you should have done.. its going to be one of those cycles. you wont be able to take full advantage of right here and now because your mind is dwelling on something that you can't do a god dammed thing about.
and if i sit here typing any longer, i wont be able to do anything abotu how i made myself late for work. peas
perspective is such a funny thing. one one hand it can be so cruel, suffocating you 20,000 leauges under the sea, but on the other it can put you on top of the world.
but perspective isn't everything, you can compare, but it's still the same thing.
but i guess anything isnt anything till its something in your mind. how your mind creates it.
so in reality, it's just what you make of it.
make the best of it, or change it.
frustration for me, as of late, came from my dissapointment in what i thought things would be. i thought things would happen in this fashion but they didn't. that made me quite upset.
but the thing is, i won't know really how things would have gone. i don't know if it would have been good or bad. i wont know. but i was dwelling on the fact that THAT way was the way it was SUPPOSED to be. the way it was GOING to be. black and white.
well, it didnt. and i just recent realized that... despite the fact that time and space didn't procede in a fashion my 8 year old self decided was correct.. i'm ok.
the world did not come crashing down and i still have all my limbs.
i have some wonderful friends and have forged a friendship with my parents that i had never imagined.
i have 2 cute little furries that i love and adore and im here in worcester.
i'm happy.
seriously.
not 24 hours a day,.. but overall, things ain't that bad.
it's easy to take for granted the things that are good.
like the fact that i just painted my fingernails for the first time in at least a year.
they are shiny and pretty and it makes me happy
the fact that i was driving right behind a thunderstorm on the way to work yesterday but still was in the sun when i glimpsed this big old scary lightning bolt. with the postal service up so loud i couldnt hear myself. immeresed. not oblivous. to whats good. what's bad. to what is.
it's important because what is now, will only be.. right now. and once you miss it, its gone. if you spend your whole life thinking what you should have done.. its going to be one of those cycles. you wont be able to take full advantage of right here and now because your mind is dwelling on something that you can't do a god dammed thing about.
and if i sit here typing any longer, i wont be able to do anything abotu how i made myself late for work. peas