So much shit........
My life the last month I feel like has been complete hysteria.
I have had so much f'n drama nad stuff going on, its wearing me down!!! Fast!
Im beggining to get my head strongness back about people. That I cant trust anyone and
get close to anyone cause they are all a dissappointment.
Im gonna touch on my dad, my lil sister, Amanda, my new place, Mistie, the boy, work, Stephen. Im just gonna go. Whatever I talk about I talk about. Fuk it.
First my dad and lil sister situation is getting a lil better. I was sitting at work going along all happy, then my sister(Renee) calls me twice but I couldnt answer cause I was working. Then Mistie calls me , so I answer thinking something is wrong. She said Renee called her. So I hang up and call Renee. Renee proceeds to yell at me(not directed towards me) and tell me what had happened that morning to my dad. She said that my lil sister(Ryan) and he got into it. Now keep in mind Ryanis a bitch, expects everything in life handed to her, and is staying with my dad and stepmom. She is not my fathers, hence STEP sister. All the while being 22-23 having two kids and divorcing her man cause shes crazy. Renee proceeds to tell me that she told my dad she wished he would just have a heart attack and die. That pissed me right the fuk on off, as it did my 2 half sisters Renee and Stacy. So I immediately let her go and call dad and find out whats going on before I head out there to kill someone. He told me everything that happened. In short, he went off on her because she got fired 2 weeks prior, leaves her kids unattended while she sleeps til like 10-11, and my dad said it wasnt right. My stepmom wakes up at 530 every morning, work by 7am, then come home to cook for all of them. He said its not right to her. She proceeded with what she said. My dad said she said things about her own mother that my dads not even going to tell my stepmom. If that tells you anything about the way the lil bitch is. Well I got off the phone with dad and called my stpemom. I said Hey does Ryan have anywhere to stay tonight. She said i dont know. I said well you better make sure shes out of that house before I get out there this afternoon. I didnt know she didnt know anything at this point. So she doesnt say anything and just hangs up on me. So I call dad and tell him to hand Ryan the phone. She said hello, I said I dont care where you gotta go I dont care what you gotta do, you better be out of that house by the time I get there this afternoon. She said dont threaten me. i said Ryan its not a threat, Im just letn you know. Then she starts yelling about something, so ijust hang up. Im not the one to sit and listen to crap. So I let it go for about an hour. I call dad back, shes packing her stuff. OK, so, guess where she goes and stays? haha This is funny shit. She goes to stay with her soon to be ex husbands father and stepmom. Then her dad proceeded to call her and MY dad answered the phone. Her dad said he was gonna kick my dads ass. Well, see the reason this all started is because she knew my dads been having heart problems for the last couple months. Which worried us(family) anyways. Then to say something like that. Oh I think not bitch. Anyways, so a couple days ago she wrecks her car her ex is SUPPOSED to be payfor. Well she had expired tags, let the insurance run out, and it got repoed on the spot. I told dad everything comes around to peopole like that. I said shes probly now at the lowest of her lows. I said thats what it took for me to change my life around. It sux for her, I hate to see anyone go through all that. But shes a bitch, and I have no sympathy for someone that doesnt have a heart. Shes basically pushed all my family away from her. Also, little does her dd even know how she really is. He'll get a taste and then kick her out too. I also told dad she didnt realize how good she had it. they were letting her stay there free, watching her kids all the time, and she had a good roof over her head. I said MOST single mothers struggle their whole parenthood to get that. She had it free. To think she didnt help around the house at ALL, and didnt even take initiative to look for a job. I mean my dad only let her move in for my stepmom. Thats just about all of that story i guess. Im over it anyways.
Then this whole thing with Amanda. I mean its too complex to get into. Basically shes pulling everything out of the air and her ass to use agaist me, as if something is my fault. Its all on her, and she knows it. Thats why shes on the defensive. I havent been at all. But oh well. I dont know at this point whether I want to save our friendship at all. I just cant put up with it. But its allllll drama for no reason. ...and to think she actually thinks Mistie is gonna hide or keep ANYTHING from me is complete stupidity on her part.
Angie, a good friend of mine at work is coming over to drink with me and for me to talk to. I thank her for that. I need someone thats not in my life ALL the time and get some issues out. I love her. Shes awesome.
Stephen, my boss for a couple more weeks, I just found out, went into Amandas office and asked what was wrong with me. I had been snappy and had attitude. Im guessing hes talking about my email to him. I said "Its noce of you to say hi to your employees when you visit a branch". I mean hes my immediate sup and he came in and didnt even say anything. Well he proceeded to go into AMandas office and ask her whats wrong with me. The tells her I, yes I better be glad he hasnt wrote me up yet. Then Amanda proceeds to tell Mistie ...and he wonders why he cant get a permanent position. Well, fuck that shit. Thats why shes fukn miserable where she is, and hes not who he thinks he is. Im over it. But you better know Im not putn up with that BULLSHIT at all. It is documented. Believe that. Its documented and if I have any further problems, that too will be documented. Your not gonna expect respect out of me when you dont respect me yourself.
I absolutely LOVE my new place. Ill say it a thouseand more times if I wanna. Its so freakin cozy and home. I love it. Im so glad Mistie and I are living together. We can cuss each other out then be fine 10 mins later. lol I think were gonna be awesome roomies. Im so so glad its just us. Shes been the most best Best Friend I could ever ask for. I hope she says the same about me. Shes been an amazing person inmy life. I love her more than she knows. Even when Im an asshole, but like she says. Noone knows me like she does. Thank you for being there for me, in so many ways, some I may never even notice. You mean the world to me.
I miss the boy so incredibly much. Mistie and I talked about him last night among everything thing else. Like Ive said before. I just want to touch him and know hes there. I love him more so than any other. I long for him, I yurn for him. I miss him so incredibly much I dont know how to describe it. I cant wait til the new year when we can start seeing each other again. I love you baby!!!
Love to all my peeps!!
Sorry so long, but I had to document all this shit going on.
I miss my mom lots!!!
I have had so much f'n drama nad stuff going on, its wearing me down!!! Fast!
Im beggining to get my head strongness back about people. That I cant trust anyone and
get close to anyone cause they are all a dissappointment.
Im gonna touch on my dad, my lil sister, Amanda, my new place, Mistie, the boy, work, Stephen. Im just gonna go. Whatever I talk about I talk about. Fuk it.
First my dad and lil sister situation is getting a lil better. I was sitting at work going along all happy, then my sister(Renee) calls me twice but I couldnt answer cause I was working. Then Mistie calls me , so I answer thinking something is wrong. She said Renee called her. So I hang up and call Renee. Renee proceeds to yell at me(not directed towards me) and tell me what had happened that morning to my dad. She said that my lil sister(Ryan) and he got into it. Now keep in mind Ryanis a bitch, expects everything in life handed to her, and is staying with my dad and stepmom. She is not my fathers, hence STEP sister. All the while being 22-23 having two kids and divorcing her man cause shes crazy. Renee proceeds to tell me that she told my dad she wished he would just have a heart attack and die. That pissed me right the fuk on off, as it did my 2 half sisters Renee and Stacy. So I immediately let her go and call dad and find out whats going on before I head out there to kill someone. He told me everything that happened. In short, he went off on her because she got fired 2 weeks prior, leaves her kids unattended while she sleeps til like 10-11, and my dad said it wasnt right. My stepmom wakes up at 530 every morning, work by 7am, then come home to cook for all of them. He said its not right to her. She proceeded with what she said. My dad said she said things about her own mother that my dads not even going to tell my stepmom. If that tells you anything about the way the lil bitch is. Well I got off the phone with dad and called my stpemom. I said Hey does Ryan have anywhere to stay tonight. She said i dont know. I said well you better make sure shes out of that house before I get out there this afternoon. I didnt know she didnt know anything at this point. So she doesnt say anything and just hangs up on me. So I call dad and tell him to hand Ryan the phone. She said hello, I said I dont care where you gotta go I dont care what you gotta do, you better be out of that house by the time I get there this afternoon. She said dont threaten me. i said Ryan its not a threat, Im just letn you know. Then she starts yelling about something, so ijust hang up. Im not the one to sit and listen to crap. So I let it go for about an hour. I call dad back, shes packing her stuff. OK, so, guess where she goes and stays? haha This is funny shit. She goes to stay with her soon to be ex husbands father and stepmom. Then her dad proceeded to call her and MY dad answered the phone. Her dad said he was gonna kick my dads ass. Well, see the reason this all started is because she knew my dads been having heart problems for the last couple months. Which worried us(family) anyways. Then to say something like that. Oh I think not bitch. Anyways, so a couple days ago she wrecks her car her ex is SUPPOSED to be payfor. Well she had expired tags, let the insurance run out, and it got repoed on the spot. I told dad everything comes around to peopole like that. I said shes probly now at the lowest of her lows. I said thats what it took for me to change my life around. It sux for her, I hate to see anyone go through all that. But shes a bitch, and I have no sympathy for someone that doesnt have a heart. Shes basically pushed all my family away from her. Also, little does her dd even know how she really is. He'll get a taste and then kick her out too. I also told dad she didnt realize how good she had it. they were letting her stay there free, watching her kids all the time, and she had a good roof over her head. I said MOST single mothers struggle their whole parenthood to get that. She had it free. To think she didnt help around the house at ALL, and didnt even take initiative to look for a job. I mean my dad only let her move in for my stepmom. Thats just about all of that story i guess. Im over it anyways.
Then this whole thing with Amanda. I mean its too complex to get into. Basically shes pulling everything out of the air and her ass to use agaist me, as if something is my fault. Its all on her, and she knows it. Thats why shes on the defensive. I havent been at all. But oh well. I dont know at this point whether I want to save our friendship at all. I just cant put up with it. But its allllll drama for no reason. ...and to think she actually thinks Mistie is gonna hide or keep ANYTHING from me is complete stupidity on her part.
Angie, a good friend of mine at work is coming over to drink with me and for me to talk to. I thank her for that. I need someone thats not in my life ALL the time and get some issues out. I love her. Shes awesome.
Stephen, my boss for a couple more weeks, I just found out, went into Amandas office and asked what was wrong with me. I had been snappy and had attitude. Im guessing hes talking about my email to him. I said "Its noce of you to say hi to your employees when you visit a branch". I mean hes my immediate sup and he came in and didnt even say anything. Well he proceeded to go into AMandas office and ask her whats wrong with me. The tells her I, yes I better be glad he hasnt wrote me up yet. Then Amanda proceeds to tell Mistie ...and he wonders why he cant get a permanent position. Well, fuck that shit. Thats why shes fukn miserable where she is, and hes not who he thinks he is. Im over it. But you better know Im not putn up with that BULLSHIT at all. It is documented. Believe that. Its documented and if I have any further problems, that too will be documented. Your not gonna expect respect out of me when you dont respect me yourself.
I absolutely LOVE my new place. Ill say it a thouseand more times if I wanna. Its so freakin cozy and home. I love it. Im so glad Mistie and I are living together. We can cuss each other out then be fine 10 mins later. lol I think were gonna be awesome roomies. Im so so glad its just us. Shes been the most best Best Friend I could ever ask for. I hope she says the same about me. Shes been an amazing person inmy life. I love her more than she knows. Even when Im an asshole, but like she says. Noone knows me like she does. Thank you for being there for me, in so many ways, some I may never even notice. You mean the world to me.
I miss the boy so incredibly much. Mistie and I talked about him last night among everything thing else. Like Ive said before. I just want to touch him and know hes there. I love him more so than any other. I long for him, I yurn for him. I miss him so incredibly much I dont know how to describe it. I cant wait til the new year when we can start seeing each other again. I love you baby!!!
Love to all my peeps!!
Sorry so long, but I had to document all this shit going on.
I miss my mom lots!!!