Jan 09, 2006 17:51
this weekend was totally rad....... but also one of the saddest....
on friday i saw merritt and she got REALLY pissed about her mom and sister and i didn't know what to say really cuz i've never seen my parents do something like that before (well, i have, but not really on that level)..... so i was there with her to say that i loved her and try to calm her down........
on saturday she came over and it was a great day and i had lotsa fun with her but she had to leave at like 6 cuz her mom wanted her to watch her sister....
after she left dean made me come to mt. brighton..........
i was still really happy about hangin out with merritt earlier and when i got there, i knew something was wrong....... courtney had WAY too much weed, and even though you cant OD on it, she was trying to clench her jaw so she couldnt breath and was in and out of consciosness the whole time..... i've saved friends before, i've seen people overdose or get alcohol poisoning, but this was so horriffic. dean and matt were fighting cuz dean was making fun of the situation and matt was as scared as i was...... when courtneys heart stopped, i couldnt believe it...... everyone rushed to find her pulse and bring her back, but i was at the brink of just crying cuz i had never seen anything this bad. when your buddies drink too much you just gotta help them and make sure they dont choke, but this was more serious..... she weighs 98lbs., didnt take any anti-deppressants that she needs, and it was her first time on reafer........ at that time i needed merritt and she was there.......
then i talked with a guy named mike who seemed to be interested alot in my relationship w/ merritt and i told him how i feel and everything and i told him bout my quitting all that shit i used to do...... then i pulled merritts note out of my wallet and showed it to him, and the look on his face was so great..... he smiled so warmly that i couldn' believe it and said to me: "i know that she cares about you more than anything just by lookin' at this" and handed it back....... i'll be jammin with him later in the next coupla weeks and i told him that he has to meet merritt and he agreed.........
i'm just so grateful that we took care of courtney, that i met a guy who i connected with on a deep friendship level, and most of all that i have merritt......... shes everything to me and i'm in love with her so much and shes everything to me.......
..... i love you merritt........ more than anything