seeing you cry makes me feel like saying sorry.....

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god......

if only i could realize that i need to grow up, that i need to be a better person.....

she says i'm a good person and i believe her, but i need to be better and i need to let her trust me.....

my throat hurts from all the crying
sickness is welling up from knowing what i did, and how i'm breaking my heart
i would give my arm to make her happy again
i'd give my own life for her to be happy again

please god make this end, please i'm begging you if you're out there to help me stop
please help me stop crying
please help me fix this, i have faith in you and myself and merritt

god, i've never felt a sadness before that mixes with the joys of today
please help me
.......please..........