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[dreams_n_tears]

I am now 23...On December 15th (when I was 22) I had a surgical abortion. The place I went to will not do abortions after 13 weeks and when I went I was just a couple days shy of 13 weeks. However, I was told by a different place that I was only 9 weeks, so I was surprised. I didn't change my mind, but I was uneasy nonetheless. I was okay with my

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[eyelid]

Ramble as much as you like :)

It's really tough when you don't have anyone you can really TALK to about your abortion... Talking about things like this can really help get your feelings out.

Longing for a baby at some point is totally natural and normal for most women. From what I've seen, being pregnant can sometimes "turn on" that biological clock that makes women want to get pregnant/have babies. I know that in my teenage years and early twenties, I knew I wanted to have kids, but since I hit about 25-26 I've had full-on baby madness. I think it's a biological thing... and after my abortion I got the first hints of it. After I gave birth it got WORSE!

You might want to try calling 1-800-4exhale. That's a free national after-abortion hotline staffed with counsellors who will lend you a sympathetic ear... it has no political purpose, it was just founded by women who thought there should be such a service. You might be able to talk yourself out there :)

[uhohlissa]

I don't know if you have insurance, but it can help to talk to a psychologist. I haven't been to one in quite a while, but when you're feeling depressed or anxious, it really helps to talk to someone who HAS to sit there and listen to you no matter how much you ramble. =) A psychologist is also an "outsider" to your situation - someone who won't judge you for what you have or have not done.

Also, if you don't have insurance, many churches and communities have licensed psychologists who do work for FREE by appointment as a community service-type thing. I don't know where you stand with church, but I went to one a few times at a local church and she was REALLY cool - she didn't shove church stuff down my throat, but just let me vent and ramble on and on and gave me suggestions for healthy steps to take regarding the situations I was in.

Of course, LJ is a great place to ramble, too!

[leenabeana]

I know you posted this quite a while ago, but I know what you mean. My due date was april 9th... a friend of mine had her baby april 4th. I find myself being jealous of her. wishing that i had made a different decision but at the same time knowing i did the right thing.