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so i dont even kno where to begin this past week has been hell....
my mind is goin crazy....i dont kno what the hell to do anymore or what to think....
me n my boyfriend had an arugment things get blown out of proprotion....i was wasted...he was wasted...he kind of threatned me...i got scared went to the bathroom crying...than it all went down hill from there....now everyone is involved in our business....
i made the mistake of telling ppl....which i shouldnt have....but when u are drunk n histerical....u tend to call ppl n tell them...well it least i do....
so now my parents dont want me talking to rob...n they said last night they dont want anything to do with me....i have to talk to them tomorrow....i wish they would just actually listen to me....n be there for me....n support my decisions that i make n of all ppl i would think my mom would be the person to understand my situation to me it just seems like they want to control me...not really help me...
i feel like the whole thing is my fault n im making things even harder than it really is....
i wish i lived on my own n had a good job....than i could just leave everyone n not deal with any shit right now.....im goin crazy
i dont kno if i can handle much more of this....
i feel hurt....that rob did that....
i feel bad that i told ppl....
n now i feel completely alone....
i dunno i feel like its all my fault....n now i could be ruining his life....
i seriously wonder if things are ever goin to get better...
my mind is goin crazy....i dont kno what the hell to do anymore or what to think....
me n my boyfriend had an arugment things get blown out of proprotion....i was wasted...he was wasted...he kind of threatned me...i got scared went to the bathroom crying...than it all went down hill from there....now everyone is involved in our business....
i made the mistake of telling ppl....which i shouldnt have....but when u are drunk n histerical....u tend to call ppl n tell them...well it least i do....
so now my parents dont want me talking to rob...n they said last night they dont want anything to do with me....i have to talk to them tomorrow....i wish they would just actually listen to me....n be there for me....n support my decisions that i make n of all ppl i would think my mom would be the person to understand my situation to me it just seems like they want to control me...not really help me...
i feel like the whole thing is my fault n im making things even harder than it really is....
i wish i lived on my own n had a good job....than i could just leave everyone n not deal with any shit right now.....im goin crazy
i dont kno if i can handle much more of this....
i feel hurt....that rob did that....
i feel bad that i told ppl....
n now i feel completely alone....
i dunno i feel like its all my fault....n now i could be ruining his life....
i seriously wonder if things are ever goin to get better...