I HOPE THE HELL SOME ONE THE FUCK IS READING THIS
Well I am fucked up... I drank White cream Manachevitz
Har is in bed... and i am finally fucking saying as it is
after concideration and wine... I finally wrote Crystal.. She sent harley a fucking birthday card. And didnt say anything after squeezing a fucking almost 9 lb bably out my vigina... Ok.. Im a bit livid. Didnt get invited to Autumns 1st birthday party...and i fucking spent 200 dollers on stuff for her. I just wanted her to fucking pop in say hello.... Iknow you exist.
I wrote her finally... sayingsorry. Like I truthfully expect a response. NONONONONONONONONONO...Fucking no.
When I was young i always felt like no one really knew that i existed. I remember being at a slumber party fucking years ago must of been in 5th, maybe 6tth grade. They were watching a movie and i went into the kitchen. No one knew i was gone for like over an hour. except the mother... Then when i was older . I had a youth group.. we played hide and seek. I was gone hiding. No one noticed. They started a whole fucking new game. No one noticed i was fucking gone. I was totally upset as anyone would be. but i realized then...No one really cares. I could fucking escape off the face of the earth and would anyone notice. Well right now...my children would notice because they would need a sitter. I really feel like a fucking ghost. I could disappear and no one would really notice except my kids. whoooo whooo go fucking pick up your toys.
But truthfully would there be any other point? No one would wash laundry. No one would clean dishes. NO one would clean house. No one would yell when homework istn done.
LIke i think anyone will read this.. .
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I should just crawl away...into darkness...away... far away...
You know... There was one time that i thought i was too noticable. I had this very fucked up dream. very fucked up... where i was evil.. Killing things.. I was very evil.. And I knew... knew they were looking for me. They were looking for me. I got married...hid... and havent had that feeling sence. But... behind it all.... behind where i am hiding... i feel the eyes upon me.... looking
what should i do
Har is in bed... and i am finally fucking saying as it is
after concideration and wine... I finally wrote Crystal.. She sent harley a fucking birthday card. And didnt say anything after squeezing a fucking almost 9 lb bably out my vigina... Ok.. Im a bit livid. Didnt get invited to Autumns 1st birthday party...and i fucking spent 200 dollers on stuff for her. I just wanted her to fucking pop in say hello.... Iknow you exist.
I wrote her finally... sayingsorry. Like I truthfully expect a response. NONONONONONONONONONO...Fucking no.
When I was young i always felt like no one really knew that i existed. I remember being at a slumber party fucking years ago must of been in 5th, maybe 6tth grade. They were watching a movie and i went into the kitchen. No one knew i was gone for like over an hour. except the mother... Then when i was older . I had a youth group.. we played hide and seek. I was gone hiding. No one noticed. They started a whole fucking new game. No one noticed i was fucking gone. I was totally upset as anyone would be. but i realized then...No one really cares. I could fucking escape off the face of the earth and would anyone notice. Well right now...my children would notice because they would need a sitter. I really feel like a fucking ghost. I could disappear and no one would really notice except my kids. whoooo whooo go fucking pick up your toys.
But truthfully would there be any other point? No one would wash laundry. No one would clean dishes. NO one would clean house. No one would yell when homework istn done.
LIke i think anyone will read this.. .
'
I should just crawl away...into darkness...away... far away...
You know... There was one time that i thought i was too noticable. I had this very fucked up dream. very fucked up... where i was evil.. Killing things.. I was very evil.. And I knew... knew they were looking for me. They were looking for me. I got married...hid... and havent had that feeling sence. But... behind it all.... behind where i am hiding... i feel the eyes upon me.... looking
what should i do