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i can not remember the last time that i updated...this makes me sad dear lj! i feel that i am a better, more stable person when i el jay....so here goes.......
girls are so foolish. all of us. all around me i see our foolish ways. it's amazing to me. why do we put oursleves through such misery? and we all do it. for a while i thought i was the only stupid one. but it's everywhere. i dont understand why females are so trained to take such less than deserved.
so what do you do? what do you do when you have located the source and reasoning for the problem....but still let the problem continue? knowing that you are cheating and hurting yourself. how do you make it stop. sometimes i wish that i was stronger emotionally. im trying to work on it. but if it could come into play RIGHT NOW it would just be great. the fact that i know what i need to do shows improvement. but the final blow will be the actual act of quitting. i dont know what it's going to take really...or should i say what more could it take? usually when im pushed to my limits i will stad up and resist. what's scary is i have not resisted as much as i should have to this point......am i really going to let myself take this much?
it's funny the way that people can perceive things. you can have a situation so built up in your head. you can assume that crazy things are happening and wish to be that person in the given situation. it's even funnier when you find out that the person that you wished to be was actually perceiving the same things about you....and wishing to be you. neither in the immaculate situation you assumed each other were in.over such pettiness. one day i hope to look back on this as a silly pastime. one day soon.
girls are so foolish. all of us. all around me i see our foolish ways. it's amazing to me. why do we put oursleves through such misery? and we all do it. for a while i thought i was the only stupid one. but it's everywhere. i dont understand why females are so trained to take such less than deserved.
so what do you do? what do you do when you have located the source and reasoning for the problem....but still let the problem continue? knowing that you are cheating and hurting yourself. how do you make it stop. sometimes i wish that i was stronger emotionally. im trying to work on it. but if it could come into play RIGHT NOW it would just be great. the fact that i know what i need to do shows improvement. but the final blow will be the actual act of quitting. i dont know what it's going to take really...or should i say what more could it take? usually when im pushed to my limits i will stad up and resist. what's scary is i have not resisted as much as i should have to this point......am i really going to let myself take this much?
it's funny the way that people can perceive things. you can have a situation so built up in your head. you can assume that crazy things are happening and wish to be that person in the given situation. it's even funnier when you find out that the person that you wished to be was actually perceiving the same things about you....and wishing to be you. neither in the immaculate situation you assumed each other were in.over such pettiness. one day i hope to look back on this as a silly pastime. one day soon.