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so here i am. school starts in 2 days. summer is almost over. hmmmm.....so much has changed......
at the beginning of the summer i was with patrick. woah. i am definitely not the same person that i was when i was with him. thank god. i was nuts....litterally crazy. glad thats over. breaking up with him was step one in becoming a different person. i really do believe that difficult as it may have been it was the best for both. i hope he's doing ok.
i have learned alot about myself. good things and bad. why i do and feel the things that i do. trying to fix some of my shortcommings. thats hard. never tried to do that before. it's hard making semi-adult decisions. i still feel like many of my actions are still very childish though.
then there's the situation that has taught me the most. about myself and people in general. while you can have something so built up in your head reality can just show up and prove how naiive you can actually be. that sucks. i would have rather not learned this. it's hard to accept something like this. but i have to learn to let go. not become so fixated on one thing or idea. see whats really there.....for what it's really worth.
this summer's been rough. i will be a better person for it in the end though. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? i sure hope so...otherwise all of this was for nothing.
at the beginning of the summer i was with patrick. woah. i am definitely not the same person that i was when i was with him. thank god. i was nuts....litterally crazy. glad thats over. breaking up with him was step one in becoming a different person. i really do believe that difficult as it may have been it was the best for both. i hope he's doing ok.
i have learned alot about myself. good things and bad. why i do and feel the things that i do. trying to fix some of my shortcommings. thats hard. never tried to do that before. it's hard making semi-adult decisions. i still feel like many of my actions are still very childish though.
then there's the situation that has taught me the most. about myself and people in general. while you can have something so built up in your head reality can just show up and prove how naiive you can actually be. that sucks. i would have rather not learned this. it's hard to accept something like this. but i have to learn to let go. not become so fixated on one thing or idea. see whats really there.....for what it's really worth.
this summer's been rough. i will be a better person for it in the end though. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? i sure hope so...otherwise all of this was for nothing.