Slowly crawling out of the cave
So very tired and yet I can't seem to go to sleep. I know this is usually a side effect of my depression, and it is true that I have been depressed the last few weeks. I also noticed that my posting online drops off when I am depressed. I guess it is hard to reach out to others when I want to hide in a cave. Maybe tomorrow I will have the energy to take a deeper look and see what is going on with me. For now I will hide myself in a book until I can drift off to sleep and hopefully dream beautifully strange dreams.
This weekend was good. We picked up Rayn's best friend on Friday and they played until Sunday afternoon when I dropped him back off at home. I am so grateful that Rayn has this life long friendship and that they understand each other so well. He spent two nights here and although it was clear they needed a little break from each other today they didn't fight at all. For Fathers day we bought a bunch of water guns and then chased each other around the backyard having a water gun fight. It was a lot of fun despite the chill in the air today. Then this evening we had a big family dinner with my side of the family. I was struck with how old every one is looking and also saddened by the fact that my Grandfather did not belong at the dinner. He belongs in a bed with nurses caring for him. I am hopeful that we can get him there sooner rather than later.
I am not prepared for Monday. I like to have the house in order and laundry washed for the week before Monday morning. None of that is true here and my endless list of chores feels a little insurmountable. I will start tomorrow morning and wade my way through the list. Hopefully I will be encouraged by what I can get done in the morning. We shall see.
Now really...off to dream beautifully strange dreams. Goodnight friends.
This weekend was good. We picked up Rayn's best friend on Friday and they played until Sunday afternoon when I dropped him back off at home. I am so grateful that Rayn has this life long friendship and that they understand each other so well. He spent two nights here and although it was clear they needed a little break from each other today they didn't fight at all. For Fathers day we bought a bunch of water guns and then chased each other around the backyard having a water gun fight. It was a lot of fun despite the chill in the air today. Then this evening we had a big family dinner with my side of the family. I was struck with how old every one is looking and also saddened by the fact that my Grandfather did not belong at the dinner. He belongs in a bed with nurses caring for him. I am hopeful that we can get him there sooner rather than later.
I am not prepared for Monday. I like to have the house in order and laundry washed for the week before Monday morning. None of that is true here and my endless list of chores feels a little insurmountable. I will start tomorrow morning and wade my way through the list. Hopefully I will be encouraged by what I can get done in the morning. We shall see.
Now really...off to dream beautifully strange dreams. Goodnight friends.