.spn 6.09: or, I *want* to believe...

[aesc]

Yeah, another stupid week. Honestly, I am fucking fed up at this point, with myself and with about 99.99999% of the world. Just fucking sign me out already.

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[aesc]

*hugs!* I actually went back and looked at my review this morning, and I was all "Oh my god, aesc, you turned into the raging, frothing fangirl you never wanted to be. You turned into the raging, frothing fangirl you make fun of." The past couple of months have been super-stressful--I'm applying for work for next year, and in my particular field applying for work means spending three or four (or five) months slowly having your self-esteem and confidence eroded into nothingness, and people who I kind of need to support me haven't been terribly trustworthy. So last night, I ended up descending into a sneaky hate spiral, and my review ended up being the distillation of a process like this:



hyperboleandahalf.com

Part of me wants to go back and erase all the ranty, incoherent parts, but I should probably leave it up there as a reminder to myself.