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Have you ever noticed that something horrible had happened to your best friend and even though you weren't quite sure what had happened, you still got really upset just because you could tell they were upset???
This situation has nothing to do with me... but god, I'm about to cry.
Hell, I did cry... earlier today. He won't talk to me, even about stuff like, "How was your day?" And I don't even know what the hell is wrong. All I want to do is make it better and I want the people that are causing whatever issue it is to stop doing whatever it is they are doing. I want them to go away. I want him to be okay. I want to talk to him. And for him to be able to talk to me.
And for some damn reason, I feel like I'm the cause of whatever is wrong. I think I have an idea of what it has to do with, and if I'm correct, then I don't understand how it's not my fault. If he and I had never become friends, nothing would have ever happened at all. I can't help but think that and then I just want to disappear.
I'm kind of at a roadblock in my life right now and I need my best friend. God, how I need him. But he can't talk to me. I'm worried about him, I'm worried about me. I'm worried that things won't ever be the same, but I have no one to talk to about it.
I just want to cower in my bed for a few days and cry.
This situation has nothing to do with me... but god, I'm about to cry.
Hell, I did cry... earlier today. He won't talk to me, even about stuff like, "How was your day?" And I don't even know what the hell is wrong. All I want to do is make it better and I want the people that are causing whatever issue it is to stop doing whatever it is they are doing. I want them to go away. I want him to be okay. I want to talk to him. And for him to be able to talk to me.
And for some damn reason, I feel like I'm the cause of whatever is wrong. I think I have an idea of what it has to do with, and if I'm correct, then I don't understand how it's not my fault. If he and I had never become friends, nothing would have ever happened at all. I can't help but think that and then I just want to disappear.
I'm kind of at a roadblock in my life right now and I need my best friend. God, how I need him. But he can't talk to me. I'm worried about him, I'm worried about me. I'm worried that things won't ever be the same, but I have no one to talk to about it.
I just want to cower in my bed for a few days and cry.