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Well what can I say within this viewed Journal. Should I say that I am happy that I have lost weight, or that its a four day weekend. Or should I say that I am sad....sad that my kind love is not here. Now I bet you all are tired of hearing about jonathan. About how i love him and how about I am sad becasue I miss him. But what am I to say when I was told to write within this journal of mine on how I feel. I can't hide it all... I just can't.
I don't know if many understand what this feeling this is, or how are it is to not be with the one your with. I mean sure I get to talk with him over the phone but that doesn't matter. I mean come on, to not able to have the touch....to feel that hand to mine, or to feel that embraced hug. All I want from him is that love from.......his heart. You know I never knew I could feel love in this way, never felt that my heart could race in all the may possiable.
His words are like the night, so mystic....so...so beautiful. I mean I wish you all could understand what this love means to me. What I think in my head when I do think about him. I mean its not like he just lives down the street. I just can't wait for that day when I walk along the airport ground and look for him. I know what feeling I will get when i walk through that place. Like this is the day when I see my love. My stomach will be in knots and my face all red. I know all I will think is " what am I going to sya to him, am I going to kiss him when I see him?" You know its just hard to figure out.
WOrds through my mind can not compare the simple words of love I have for him. I mean why can't I just run ot to him....to help him heal for the wounds of ....someone....I love him with all my heart....I want him to call....so bad..I want to say what I feel, how I feel about all this... I want him to know it all. Maybe he will understand when he is here about that love inside of me...maybe...
I don't know if many understand what this feeling this is, or how are it is to not be with the one your with. I mean sure I get to talk with him over the phone but that doesn't matter. I mean come on, to not able to have the touch....to feel that hand to mine, or to feel that embraced hug. All I want from him is that love from.......his heart. You know I never knew I could feel love in this way, never felt that my heart could race in all the may possiable.
His words are like the night, so mystic....so...so beautiful. I mean I wish you all could understand what this love means to me. What I think in my head when I do think about him. I mean its not like he just lives down the street. I just can't wait for that day when I walk along the airport ground and look for him. I know what feeling I will get when i walk through that place. Like this is the day when I see my love. My stomach will be in knots and my face all red. I know all I will think is " what am I going to sya to him, am I going to kiss him when I see him?" You know its just hard to figure out.
WOrds through my mind can not compare the simple words of love I have for him. I mean why can't I just run ot to him....to help him heal for the wounds of ....someone....I love him with all my heart....I want him to call....so bad..I want to say what I feel, how I feel about all this... I want him to know it all. Maybe he will understand when he is here about that love inside of me...maybe...