TM Response #206 - What are you living for?
Truthfully? I don't know anymore.
If you'd asked me a year ago, I could have rattled off once of half a dozen answers, including rescuing my father and destroying XANA. Battling his monsters on Lyoko, shutting down active towers and protecting the sectors were all that we were concerned about in those days. In the back of my mind, sometimes at night after 'lights out', I'd think about what my life would be like after XANA was gone and wonder if I could ever go back to being Aelita Hopper instead of Aelita Stones.
But now that it's finally happened, it feels like I'm lost.
Jeremie told me that I should look forward to a happier future. I suppose defeating XANA and shutting off the supercomputer for good was supposed to make me feel free, but it didn't. I'm not like the others; I can't go back to the same life I had before I became a Lyoko Warrior. I still have to pretend that I'm someone I'm not...for the rest of my life.
There have been times when I've wanted to shout, either at Jeremie or the whole world, that I'm Aelita Jane Schaeffer, daughter of Professor Waldo Schaeffer aka Franz Hopper. But I can't. They'd throw me in the crazy house, or worse make me a prisoner of the government like my mother was. And I just can't break my friends' hearts like that, especially Jeremie's. They've worked so hard to help me all this time.
...I guess, I still do have something to live for. I still have my friends...my new family.
Aelita Jane Schaeffer Hopper is dead. Long live Aelita Stones.
If you'd asked me a year ago, I could have rattled off once of half a dozen answers, including rescuing my father and destroying XANA. Battling his monsters on Lyoko, shutting down active towers and protecting the sectors were all that we were concerned about in those days. In the back of my mind, sometimes at night after 'lights out', I'd think about what my life would be like after XANA was gone and wonder if I could ever go back to being Aelita Hopper instead of Aelita Stones.
But now that it's finally happened, it feels like I'm lost.
Jeremie told me that I should look forward to a happier future. I suppose defeating XANA and shutting off the supercomputer for good was supposed to make me feel free, but it didn't. I'm not like the others; I can't go back to the same life I had before I became a Lyoko Warrior. I still have to pretend that I'm someone I'm not...for the rest of my life.
There have been times when I've wanted to shout, either at Jeremie or the whole world, that I'm Aelita Jane Schaeffer, daughter of Professor Waldo Schaeffer aka Franz Hopper. But I can't. They'd throw me in the crazy house, or worse make me a prisoner of the government like my mother was. And I just can't break my friends' hearts like that, especially Jeremie's. They've worked so hard to help me all this time.
...I guess, I still do have something to live for. I still have my friends...my new family.
Aelita Jane Schaeffer Hopper is dead. Long live Aelita Stones.