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I really do try hard not to be jealous of other people because I know in my heart that the grass isn't always greener on the other side. Everybody faces their own problems and vices so I try to just be grateful for what I have and who I am and not so concerned with everybody else. I have a good job with substantial income, I have a beautiful and smart little girl who is my world, I live in a nice house in a great community, I have or can get most any material thing that I should strongly desire or need, I have incredibly friends (even though I did move away from them all and I miss them terribly).... I try to remember these things when I begin to feel envious of someone else's life and I try to remember that I have all the things that I really "need" to make me happy. But today... I'm finding myself envious of all these people on my facebook who are celebrating their long holiday weekends at the beach or the lake or enjoying time with their friends and families. I'm feeling a bit jealous that I am working 10-12 hour days while they are having fun. I also found myself envious of those who are married or found someone in their lives to love and be loved back. I feel like... well, what the fuck is wrong with me? And then I'll throw in there for good measure that I feel envious of skinny bitches... just because :). Just needed to throw that out there.... now I am back to appreciating what I have.
I would like to celebrate a little bit that I am down 2 more pounds and in the last couple of days I have had several people comment that I look like I've lost weight. That's always good when it's noticeable to people other than yourself. The biggest area that I have lost it so far is in my waist. I've dropped 6 inches from my waist since June 13.... then 3 inches from my hips, 1 inch from my thighs, and1 inch from my upper arms. I'm pretty sure that my boobs are still on the scale of ginormous! i can definitely tell a difference in how my clothes are fitting and in the confidence level that I feel. I still have a long way to go until I get back to where I'd like to be, but I'm off to a good start. Based on the goals that I set, I have 3 more pounds to lose until I get to treat myself to a bicycle. I've been doing a little bit of research to try to figure out what kind of bike I would like to get. I don't really want to put too much money in it because I don't really see myself being a super serious cycler... I just want something that will do just fine to get out and bike with Caty. My next treat to myself after the bike is a new pair of running shoes. I have 9 pounds to lose to get to that goal. The last pair of running shoes that I bought was like 5 years ago - perhaps a little bit longer. Granted, I haven't put a lot of miles on those shoes... but they definitely need to be replaced! The last several pair that I have bought have all been New Balance shoes - mostly because there was a New Balance store that was convenient to me at the time and I am a creature of habit. Any great running shoe suggestions out there? I will never be a hardcore runner - it kills my knees and quite frankly I don't enjoy it. They would be used mostly for the tread mill, aerobics/zumba classes that I go to, and maybe occasional casual wear.
Have I mentioned that Caty and I are going to have company this upcoming weekend? Our friend Obnoxious Jeff is coming in to town for a business trip to PA. He has arranged to fly in early to Baltimore and spend the weekend with us before he drives to PA for whatever he was doing. He will get in Friday night, I think. I took the day off on Saturday and have most of the day off during the day on Sunday - I am working 7 pm - 3 am that night so we will have the day to do whatever. With the exception of my dad at Thanksgiving, this is the first houseguest we have had since we moved here. I can finally put my guest bed/room to use! We haven't discussed what we are going to do yet. His family lived in the DC area for awhile so I think that he has done most of the standard tourist things. We will play it by ear and I'm sure find something fun to do!
I would like to celebrate a little bit that I am down 2 more pounds and in the last couple of days I have had several people comment that I look like I've lost weight. That's always good when it's noticeable to people other than yourself. The biggest area that I have lost it so far is in my waist. I've dropped 6 inches from my waist since June 13.... then 3 inches from my hips, 1 inch from my thighs, and1 inch from my upper arms. I'm pretty sure that my boobs are still on the scale of ginormous! i can definitely tell a difference in how my clothes are fitting and in the confidence level that I feel. I still have a long way to go until I get back to where I'd like to be, but I'm off to a good start. Based on the goals that I set, I have 3 more pounds to lose until I get to treat myself to a bicycle. I've been doing a little bit of research to try to figure out what kind of bike I would like to get. I don't really want to put too much money in it because I don't really see myself being a super serious cycler... I just want something that will do just fine to get out and bike with Caty. My next treat to myself after the bike is a new pair of running shoes. I have 9 pounds to lose to get to that goal. The last pair of running shoes that I bought was like 5 years ago - perhaps a little bit longer. Granted, I haven't put a lot of miles on those shoes... but they definitely need to be replaced! The last several pair that I have bought have all been New Balance shoes - mostly because there was a New Balance store that was convenient to me at the time and I am a creature of habit. Any great running shoe suggestions out there? I will never be a hardcore runner - it kills my knees and quite frankly I don't enjoy it. They would be used mostly for the tread mill, aerobics/zumba classes that I go to, and maybe occasional casual wear.
Have I mentioned that Caty and I are going to have company this upcoming weekend? Our friend Obnoxious Jeff is coming in to town for a business trip to PA. He has arranged to fly in early to Baltimore and spend the weekend with us before he drives to PA for whatever he was doing. He will get in Friday night, I think. I took the day off on Saturday and have most of the day off during the day on Sunday - I am working 7 pm - 3 am that night so we will have the day to do whatever. With the exception of my dad at Thanksgiving, this is the first houseguest we have had since we moved here. I can finally put my guest bed/room to use! We haven't discussed what we are going to do yet. His family lived in the DC area for awhile so I think that he has done most of the standard tourist things. We will play it by ear and I'm sure find something fun to do!