May 09, 2010 19:28
Mother's Day... It's a day I don't celebrate because I lost my mother to mental illness when I was born (she had a stroke during childbirth and had a psychotic break) . So even though there was a female physically present in my life, I did not have a "mother." Mother's Day is also the anniversary of the day my mother beat my lower back so badly I couldn't walk. The beating exacerbated a work injury and has resulted in a lifetime of physical pain and two back surgeries. Mother's Day is also a reminder of the fact that I am physically incapable of having my own children.
However, I am pleased and honored beyond words to know so many women who are wonderful mothers and so many people who are truly good to their mothers. All of you, whether you are pregnant for the first time or awaiting the birth of another grandchild, give me incredible hope for the future. And although it saddens me to see memorial posts regarding the mothers who have left us, I am thankful to see those posts because it's proof that the love is still there. To all my friends, near, far, wherever you are right now... remember everything good and wonderful about your mother, or about being a mother, and hold that joyous feeling in your heart every day of the year... not just on the day Hallmark dictates.