Science as an Obsession
I don't write much anymore... not much to say.
My dad is doing well, so far so good. My grades are ok, I may have to retake pchem, and ino, probably a B. So, ok overall. Though retaking a class isn't what I call good. I have a somewhat overall, "who cares" kind of feeling these days, and, I'm not sure why. Ok, I know why, I see the amount of work people put into what they do as scientists in every field- Chemistry, Biochemistry, Physics, etc., and I wonder to myself is this worth it?
People in science don't just do science. If you are even a decent scientist, you must be devoted to it almost to the point of obsession. To get a professorship at even a ("even") a state school, you must be 1/100/10000. That is to say, you must be the best of the best, who had the ability to make it through grad school. And then, again, you must continue to be completely consumed with your work.
So, I see myself as 1.) Not the best of the best and 2.) Not at all obsessed. I therefore have been wondering to myself what direction I should take from here. I do find science interesting, and I like learning new things, but as I've already stated, I know I don't have what it takes, nor the all consuming desire to live and breath the emperical method in any discipline. Maybe I'm just feeling tired, it is the last week before finals, but, I don't think so...
My dad is doing well, so far so good. My grades are ok, I may have to retake pchem, and ino, probably a B. So, ok overall. Though retaking a class isn't what I call good. I have a somewhat overall, "who cares" kind of feeling these days, and, I'm not sure why. Ok, I know why, I see the amount of work people put into what they do as scientists in every field- Chemistry, Biochemistry, Physics, etc., and I wonder to myself is this worth it?
People in science don't just do science. If you are even a decent scientist, you must be devoted to it almost to the point of obsession. To get a professorship at even a ("even") a state school, you must be 1/100/10000. That is to say, you must be the best of the best, who had the ability to make it through grad school. And then, again, you must continue to be completely consumed with your work.
So, I see myself as 1.) Not the best of the best and 2.) Not at all obsessed. I therefore have been wondering to myself what direction I should take from here. I do find science interesting, and I like learning new things, but as I've already stated, I know I don't have what it takes, nor the all consuming desire to live and breath the emperical method in any discipline. Maybe I'm just feeling tired, it is the last week before finals, but, I don't think so...