The aftermath of Jae
So it's been an interesting 5 weeks...
I almost immediately became an a4a whore again as a way to cope. I'm not proud of it, but it's helped me more than hurt. I've gone on some interesting dates, and met some interesting folks along the way. I still miss him. We agreed we both want to be friends, but it's been hard for me. I was ready to give friendship a try, but I came across a pic on facebook of Jae holding another guy and kissing. He didn't post it, but the guy he's seeing did, and it got linked. I felt like I got suckerpunched. I called Jae to get the dirt, and he said it was something that just happened. I contend it's been waiting in the wings until Jae and I broke up. It's totally supposition, but that's my theory as I never once saw Jae go on a4a, and I'm almost certain he would have had this dude not been around.
So after seeing the pic, I felt like I broke up with Jae all over again, and I'm gonna need more time to deal with this before a friendship is established. It sucks because I miss his roommate and his roommate's daughter, and the friends I've made through Jae (they're his friends and it'd be awkward right now to hang with them knowing things between Jae and I are wonky).
So yeah... Jae is doing well, and is happy. I'm glad for him. I'm doing okay, and...coping. School and work do well to distract me, and some of my close friends have been great support. I'll be fine and this too, shall pass.
I almost immediately became an a4a whore again as a way to cope. I'm not proud of it, but it's helped me more than hurt. I've gone on some interesting dates, and met some interesting folks along the way. I still miss him. We agreed we both want to be friends, but it's been hard for me. I was ready to give friendship a try, but I came across a pic on facebook of Jae holding another guy and kissing. He didn't post it, but the guy he's seeing did, and it got linked. I felt like I got suckerpunched. I called Jae to get the dirt, and he said it was something that just happened. I contend it's been waiting in the wings until Jae and I broke up. It's totally supposition, but that's my theory as I never once saw Jae go on a4a, and I'm almost certain he would have had this dude not been around.
So after seeing the pic, I felt like I broke up with Jae all over again, and I'm gonna need more time to deal with this before a friendship is established. It sucks because I miss his roommate and his roommate's daughter, and the friends I've made through Jae (they're his friends and it'd be awkward right now to hang with them knowing things between Jae and I are wonky).
So yeah... Jae is doing well, and is happy. I'm glad for him. I'm doing okay, and...coping. School and work do well to distract me, and some of my close friends have been great support. I'll be fine and this too, shall pass.