So sleepy at 4am. I drive for an hour, to the hill top and back again.

Lights
Focus on the lights
Flee from the white lights
Keep up with the red lights
Stay between the reflective lines
Repeat

I am having a hard time... in so many ways.

I am just having a terrible day. The kind of terrible day that everyone needs sometimes or they will go crazy. So many things in my life are changing. So many people count on me... without much regard for me. I am trapped. I am David fighting Goliath. I am shaking, crying, pulsing, gathering myself... doubting myself... trying to be strong for ( Read more... )

I have 10 minutes before I am on the clock. Working two jobs, taking care of my home, my animals, my man, my sister, my mother... planning a wedding... or trying to...

This is exhausting but hopefully it will all pay off someday.

I am staying awake today... I get up at 4:30am every weekday to take Josh to work and usually I come home and go back to sleep. This morning I have a stomach ache and I don't think I can sleep anyway so I'm staying up even though it's still god awful early.

I am up far too late. I wrote my paper for my writing class. It is far too long. It is only supposed to be a draft after all for peer review. I spent far too much time on it. My ankle hurts pretty bad tonight. I walked on it far too much today. I forgot my brace at home and had to walk dogs for work so I didn't have a choice really. I have far too ( Read more... )

It snowed today, it was so unexpected and so beautiful, it really made me smile even though I didn't really feel like smiling. I'm very tired. I don't have the energy to go into anything that's been going on in my life lately or to defend myself for that matter. I'm going to curl up in bed with my sweetie, my dogs and some snacks and that's all ( Read more... )

I'm sick. I don't usually get sick in the middle of summer so this is strange to me. I have been staying home and getting better so hopefully I don't get anyone else infected with this damn cold. Thats all for now, I'm going to go back to sleep for a while.