Stuff
We took Sircle to the vet today to get her follow up testing done. She had blood work to asses her general health and based on the results, to figure out if amputation surgery is an option. She also had a chest x-ray to see if the cancer has mastisized into her lungs. They will call us with the results on Monday. I am hoping to get a very firm prognosis and time line. At this point, if the cancer has spread into her lungs and she only has a few months left I don't think we will opt for amputation but rather, we will just keep her on pain meds to make sure she is comfortable. If however the cancer is only localized in her leg and she could live a year or more if it's amputated, then we will consider doing the surgery. Everyone loves her at the vets office and she is so compliant for them. The tech said when they took her in the back she saw a bed that had been made for another patient and claimed it right away lol. My poor baby girl, I hate to see her limping around. These decisions are so hard.
I think we are going to reset the date for my mom's memorial service for Saturday the 10th. So far it looks like the weather should be clear on that day. Who knows with how it's been though. I hope we don't have to cancel and reschedule it again, it's been hard enough to wait this long. The fact that she is really gone seems to be settling in. I think about her all the time and it's still hard to accept that I will never lay eyes upon her again. Josh and I have been discussing baby names a lot lately and I realized I won't be able to run names by her... I can imagine so perfectly how she would react to names she likes or dislikes... I can see her face squench in response to a bad name and I can see her eyes light up and her smile as she says "yeah" to the perfect name. It hurts... and I cry for her.
In other news, I have so many appointments coming up! On Friday I spent a lot of time on the phone with my doctors office. There was some confusion about my OB's order for an ultrasound so they need to confirm what she wants before they will make the appointment. They said they will call on Monday to work it out. I chose another primary care provider since mine moved away months ago. I made an appointment to see her for the first time on the 12th. I really want to see an endocrinologist and so far my OB's have been resistant to giving me a referral so I am hoping my new primary care doctor will help me in this regard. If not, maybe she will at least order the blood tests I want/need done.
Then on the 13th I have my next OB appointment in the morning and a meeting with my nutritionist an hour after that. I need to re-evaluate my diet because I just can't handle it anymore. My appetite has increased so much, I always feel hungry and my after meal BG levels have been completely off target no matter what I eat. Like today, the vet needed to keep Sircle for a while so we went to Denny's to eat while we waited. I had a huge omelet with lots of meat and cheese in it, a small serving of hash browns, two strips of bacon and two sausage links. I have eaten this same order many times (it's what I get every time we go to Denny's) with no problems because there is lots of protein. My blood sugar has always been on target after eating this but today 2 hours after it was 198! Jesus! Also I was extremely drowsy by the time we got home from the vet and slept on and off most of the rest of the day. I just got up about an hour ago, hungry again but curious as to how much my BG went down since I passed out. It was only down to 135. That's like 7 hours after eating... Ug. Now, even though I am starving, I feel like I shouldn't eat again until it goes down some more because it's not supposed to go over 120, and that's two hours after meals. This tells me something is definitely going wacky since eating the same thing didn't spike me before yet it does now. This sucks.
Let's see... to end on a positive note... It's not raining or snowing right now! Yay!
I think we are going to reset the date for my mom's memorial service for Saturday the 10th. So far it looks like the weather should be clear on that day. Who knows with how it's been though. I hope we don't have to cancel and reschedule it again, it's been hard enough to wait this long. The fact that she is really gone seems to be settling in. I think about her all the time and it's still hard to accept that I will never lay eyes upon her again. Josh and I have been discussing baby names a lot lately and I realized I won't be able to run names by her... I can imagine so perfectly how she would react to names she likes or dislikes... I can see her face squench in response to a bad name and I can see her eyes light up and her smile as she says "yeah" to the perfect name. It hurts... and I cry for her.
In other news, I have so many appointments coming up! On Friday I spent a lot of time on the phone with my doctors office. There was some confusion about my OB's order for an ultrasound so they need to confirm what she wants before they will make the appointment. They said they will call on Monday to work it out. I chose another primary care provider since mine moved away months ago. I made an appointment to see her for the first time on the 12th. I really want to see an endocrinologist and so far my OB's have been resistant to giving me a referral so I am hoping my new primary care doctor will help me in this regard. If not, maybe she will at least order the blood tests I want/need done.
Then on the 13th I have my next OB appointment in the morning and a meeting with my nutritionist an hour after that. I need to re-evaluate my diet because I just can't handle it anymore. My appetite has increased so much, I always feel hungry and my after meal BG levels have been completely off target no matter what I eat. Like today, the vet needed to keep Sircle for a while so we went to Denny's to eat while we waited. I had a huge omelet with lots of meat and cheese in it, a small serving of hash browns, two strips of bacon and two sausage links. I have eaten this same order many times (it's what I get every time we go to Denny's) with no problems because there is lots of protein. My blood sugar has always been on target after eating this but today 2 hours after it was 198! Jesus! Also I was extremely drowsy by the time we got home from the vet and slept on and off most of the rest of the day. I just got up about an hour ago, hungry again but curious as to how much my BG went down since I passed out. It was only down to 135. That's like 7 hours after eating... Ug. Now, even though I am starving, I feel like I shouldn't eat again until it goes down some more because it's not supposed to go over 120, and that's two hours after meals. This tells me something is definitely going wacky since eating the same thing didn't spike me before yet it does now. This sucks.
Let's see... to end on a positive note... It's not raining or snowing right now! Yay!