Why I’m Depressed
q I’m going to be 23 in less than a month and I feel purposeless and unaccomplished
q Everyone keeps asking me what I want for xmas & my b-day and I don’t give a shit
q I can’t finish my last year of college
q I was supposed to graduate in May
q I miss my therapist, Ivonne
q I can’t afford therapy anymore because I don’t have insurance
q I can’t retain much information because of all the meds I’ve been on
q I feel stupid because my mind feels as if it is being swept and juggled around
q I don’t have much of a family life
q My family doesn’t even care that I’m gone
q I have flashbacks of bad things that happened to me when I was little
q Socializing still feels weird
q It’s hard to carry conversations when your mind shuts itself off
q I have holes in my memory from all the meds I’ve been on
q Sometimes things don’t seem real and I can’t tell the difference
q My body is changing again and it feels weird
q I don’t know who I am anymore
q I feel stuck
q I don’t have the energy or motivation to be creative
q I haven’t painted anything in almost 2 years
q I haven’t played guitar in a year and a half
q I haven’t written any poetry lately
q All I want to do is hide from people
q I think I’m driving people away again
q Over a decade of depression and bullshit and it only gets worse and worse
q I wish I could disappear into one of my fantasy books and not deal with this anymore
q My dreams seem unattainable right now
q I don’t have enough money to move out of New York
q Some people don’t take me seriously
q I have an obsession with soap and without it I feel ugly and dirty
q I don’t know what’s wrong with me and neither does anyone else…I’m just NOS
q Everyone keeps asking me what I want for xmas & my b-day and I don’t give a shit
q I can’t finish my last year of college
q I was supposed to graduate in May
q I miss my therapist, Ivonne
q I can’t afford therapy anymore because I don’t have insurance
q I can’t retain much information because of all the meds I’ve been on
q I feel stupid because my mind feels as if it is being swept and juggled around
q I don’t have much of a family life
q My family doesn’t even care that I’m gone
q I have flashbacks of bad things that happened to me when I was little
q Socializing still feels weird
q It’s hard to carry conversations when your mind shuts itself off
q I have holes in my memory from all the meds I’ve been on
q Sometimes things don’t seem real and I can’t tell the difference
q My body is changing again and it feels weird
q I don’t know who I am anymore
q I feel stuck
q I don’t have the energy or motivation to be creative
q I haven’t painted anything in almost 2 years
q I haven’t played guitar in a year and a half
q I haven’t written any poetry lately
q All I want to do is hide from people
q I think I’m driving people away again
q Over a decade of depression and bullshit and it only gets worse and worse
q I wish I could disappear into one of my fantasy books and not deal with this anymore
q My dreams seem unattainable right now
q I don’t have enough money to move out of New York
q Some people don’t take me seriously
q I have an obsession with soap and without it I feel ugly and dirty
q I don’t know what’s wrong with me and neither does anyone else…I’m just NOS