thoughts on the brain
i recently received some bad news. not only is the drummer, jon - that ive been working with and getting used to and befriending for the last 8 months leaving to go to NY, but chris, the guitar player, coworker, and softball teammate is also moving to NY. both are moving to further pursue their ambitions with their creative arts which is very cool and i respect very much. im just sad though. i love all of the projects i have done very much and the people that were involved in them of course, but as far as what i would like to do with music as far as longevity, this probably was closer than most other projects ive done or been invovled with. ive always wanted a smaller setup, no more than 4 or 5, multi layered vocals, a band that there is no one front man but rather the band has one voice and it be literally the entire band. im just really sad and pretty bummed out about it. our last gig went well. we are supposed to have one more before they leave and i would imagine that would be our last. im trying not to get upset about this and a bit angry. ive put alot of time and money into this and now within the last little bit knowing that its not really going to really go any further, its just a bit frustrating but i would go to NY if i could. they offered....we are supposed to try to record the songs that we have before anyone leaves. whether or not that will happen im not sure. they are very good songs and ive grown to like them and sing them all the time - damn. im getting all emo, how retarded of me.
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on another note, my mom is doing better. im staying with her for this week to help her adjust to doing things on her own. she had stayed with my sister for a month post surgery on her back and is still in alot of major pain. getting older is something that is so strange to me. what do you do when your body ages but your mind doesnt'? she gets really frustrated cuz she can't do things and now has no other option but to rely on other people to do things and she is probably the most independent person i know, so thats gotta be really annoying and aggrivating to her.
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im off today. thank god. ive been getting in trouble alot at work. i need a vacation which im taking this next month. i haven't been able to do alot of school stuff cuz of work and practice and other things going on. i can push a grant back to next semester, can't i? i dont want to though, but it would be nice to know that that is a possibility.
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on another note, my mom is doing better. im staying with her for this week to help her adjust to doing things on her own. she had stayed with my sister for a month post surgery on her back and is still in alot of major pain. getting older is something that is so strange to me. what do you do when your body ages but your mind doesnt'? she gets really frustrated cuz she can't do things and now has no other option but to rely on other people to do things and she is probably the most independent person i know, so thats gotta be really annoying and aggrivating to her.
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im off today. thank god. ive been getting in trouble alot at work. i need a vacation which im taking this next month. i haven't been able to do alot of school stuff cuz of work and practice and other things going on. i can push a grant back to next semester, can't i? i dont want to though, but it would be nice to know that that is a possibility.