Nothing but bad news these days.
Sephiroth just called last night, to see if I'd heard from Albel. Apparently he's just vanished. He was completely cold about it to, and sounded like he was rushed. I asked him what was going on and he said he didn't know, but he'd look into finding out about mom and dad for me. *small smile* We talked for awhile. I guess he was one of the people that was outside the party at the time. He said he got a good look at the driver (who was the one who called the ambulance), but that the guy took off as soon as he heard the ambulance coming or something. Sephiroth wasn't paying too much attention at the time, he said. He was trying to keep me conscious. *small smile*
After we hung up though, it was so hard to keep the tears back. >> I ended up hyperventilating and passing back out. My doctors were freaking out, though I don't think I want to talk about why.
God... I feel like such a mess. So useless. I thought I was so strong before, but this has only shown me how weak and useless I am.
Why won't he answer his phone? Why won't he come back? What did I do to drive him off?
I'm such an idiot.
And to top it all off, they got some of the test results back and told me more about what was wrong. Both of my legs are broken. I'm going to lose my fucking scholarship. I won't be able to work. I'm going to be in the hospital for at least another three weeks, they said, while they work on surgically repairing broken bones and my skull.
Oh yeah. And they said that there are still pieces of whatever in my brain. They're going to have to do surgery asap this week to dig everything out from where my skull cracked open. >< Isn't that just peachy. I don't think I've ever been so grumpy.
Still planning to kill Albel when I see him. I hope they catch the guy that did this. I'd at least like to know why I have to suffer like this.
...my head really...
...hurts...
...........think I'll go back to sleep....
After we hung up though, it was so hard to keep the tears back. >> I ended up hyperventilating and passing back out. My doctors were freaking out, though I don't think I want to talk about why.
God... I feel like such a mess. So useless. I thought I was so strong before, but this has only shown me how weak and useless I am.
Why won't he answer his phone? Why won't he come back? What did I do to drive him off?
I'm such an idiot.
And to top it all off, they got some of the test results back and told me more about what was wrong. Both of my legs are broken. I'm going to lose my fucking scholarship. I won't be able to work. I'm going to be in the hospital for at least another three weeks, they said, while they work on surgically repairing broken bones and my skull.
Oh yeah. And they said that there are still pieces of whatever in my brain. They're going to have to do surgery asap this week to dig everything out from where my skull cracked open. >< Isn't that just peachy. I don't think I've ever been so grumpy.
Still planning to kill Albel when I see him. I hope they catch the guy that did this. I'd at least like to know why I have to suffer like this.
...my head really...
...hurts...
...........think I'll go back to sleep....