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It seems that nothing is going the way things should. At least, the way I want it to. I was looking forward to a certain thing happening only to find out that it will no longer take place. My mom was suppose to come into town and she was going to bring my second nephew, Reicyn. I keep asking her when they're coming, but she keeps telling me that she doesn't know. I finally realized that it's not going to happen. I asked her about it tonight and it's confirmed. They're not coming. I was really looking forward to this. My hopes were up so high and in an instant it came crashing down.
I feel so sad. Why bother with the empty promises? Made me realize what I've been doing lately. Making promises I'm unable to keep. I feel even more of an ass. I needed something good to happen and all of a sudden the one person who made me feel safe, who made all the bad things go away, can't be here right now. I sound selfish, but I'm so hurt. I really wanted her to be here because I really need her right now.
I'll get over it soon. Just can't stop crying right now.
I feel so sad. Why bother with the empty promises? Made me realize what I've been doing lately. Making promises I'm unable to keep. I feel even more of an ass. I needed something good to happen and all of a sudden the one person who made me feel safe, who made all the bad things go away, can't be here right now. I sound selfish, but I'm so hurt. I really wanted her to be here because I really need her right now.
I'll get over it soon. Just can't stop crying right now.