It's been a while
Geez, haven't posted in a while. I'm rarely home and I don't go online as often. Sometimes I do end up on MySpace, only to check up on my inbox because people don't know how to call anymore and rather send messages through MySpace. It's a little funny, but it works in it's own little odd way.
Things have been incredibly bumpy the past couple of weeks. Nearly 3 weeks ago, my friend RJ committed suicide because my best friend broke up with him. He clearly wasn't thinking and saw that life was not worth living if it wasn't with her. What he couldn't understand was that my best friend, Charlene, was not happy within the relationship. She always loved RJ, but needed a break. That didn't comprehend to him and decided to make one of the stupidest decisions a person can make in life.
I may sound insensitive, but I take no sympathy on those who commit suicide. Now knowing someone who succeeded, makes me feel stupid for having such thoughts. But what stops me from acting upon those thoughts is thinking of the pain I would put my family and friends through because it hurts. It really hurts. The night I found out, I rushed to Charlene's place and I could not cry for him because I was so angry. Most of all, I had to stay strong for Charlene. I felt bad as I yelled at her that it wasn't her fault, knocking some sense into her. Did he really think this would make her happy?
Other than that, I've been going back and forth from Charlene's place and mine. Sleeping over on the West side of town and sometimes making it to the comfort my own bed. I had to ditch some friends for her, but they understand once I told them the news. Charlene really needs a friend and I was the only friend she had up here in Vegas. I've known this girl for 10 years now. She's one of my best friends and it just hurt me to see her in so much pain. She finally accepted it and is trying to move on. I constantly remind her that it's ok to cry, especially when you're sad, but you have to wake up tomorrow and live another day. The world stops for no one.
Some other updates... Love life is still nonexistent, haven't really noticed or care. Social life needs improvement because there's been a lot of friends I haven't seen in a while. My mom is coming in Monday morning for a conference, which will make my entire month because I really want and need to see her right now. There are days where you just want your mommy. I officially start student teaching next Monday and I still don't know which school I'm assigned to. Thanks a lot Clark County School District. And yeah.
I should get to bed.
Things have been incredibly bumpy the past couple of weeks. Nearly 3 weeks ago, my friend RJ committed suicide because my best friend broke up with him. He clearly wasn't thinking and saw that life was not worth living if it wasn't with her. What he couldn't understand was that my best friend, Charlene, was not happy within the relationship. She always loved RJ, but needed a break. That didn't comprehend to him and decided to make one of the stupidest decisions a person can make in life.
I may sound insensitive, but I take no sympathy on those who commit suicide. Now knowing someone who succeeded, makes me feel stupid for having such thoughts. But what stops me from acting upon those thoughts is thinking of the pain I would put my family and friends through because it hurts. It really hurts. The night I found out, I rushed to Charlene's place and I could not cry for him because I was so angry. Most of all, I had to stay strong for Charlene. I felt bad as I yelled at her that it wasn't her fault, knocking some sense into her. Did he really think this would make her happy?
Other than that, I've been going back and forth from Charlene's place and mine. Sleeping over on the West side of town and sometimes making it to the comfort my own bed. I had to ditch some friends for her, but they understand once I told them the news. Charlene really needs a friend and I was the only friend she had up here in Vegas. I've known this girl for 10 years now. She's one of my best friends and it just hurt me to see her in so much pain. She finally accepted it and is trying to move on. I constantly remind her that it's ok to cry, especially when you're sad, but you have to wake up tomorrow and live another day. The world stops for no one.
Some other updates... Love life is still nonexistent, haven't really noticed or care. Social life needs improvement because there's been a lot of friends I haven't seen in a while. My mom is coming in Monday morning for a conference, which will make my entire month because I really want and need to see her right now. There are days where you just want your mommy. I officially start student teaching next Monday and I still don't know which school I'm assigned to. Thanks a lot Clark County School District. And yeah.
I should get to bed.